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so things have been going all right. I've been preoccupied with college and haven't thought about livejournal until today when I need to update the app on my phone. I figured it would be good to write here though and get something off my mind. I seriously cannot stop thinking about Emo Kid (again). I'm mostly just curious to see how he's doing. Damn bitch better not be over me :P but I'm terrified of us having a good conversation and being friends again. I don't want to fall for him all over again. george is too important to me and I'm in love with him. I want to satisfy my curiosity, but there is just too much at stake. Emo kid made me crazy and I never want to put up with that again. I just don't know what to do. I'm trying to hold off but I know I can't resist forever. I wish I could just send out of my head and be done with it. Damn my curiosity... grr -________- I'm also worried about how george would react when i told him i called the douche bag. he would probably be okay, i told him i was thinking about it and he seemed to be reasonable, but i doubt he'll react the same way if I actually did it. we're also at an interesting point in our relationship since we just got over a rough patch. I feel confident about my love for george, and our one year anniversary is next week. I even bought sexy lingerie for him! I just don't want to start something and be in a bad place all over again. I think I have to call the douche though, otherwise I'll never stop thinking about it. What terrifies me is the possibility that he'll still be on my mind afterwards and then i'll be trapped. I have a lot to lose too. George is really everything to me at this point. Oh dear, wish me luck livejournal :) <3
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