ARGH HEADACHE
wait, wait hold up.
WHAT
DID I DO SOMETHING
When you said you settled for me, does that mean no one else liked you, and you got lonely?
Or does it mean that you didn't like anyone else and you got lonely?
it means no one else liked me and i was starting to like you, so instead of being lonely i settled for you
OW =(
So wait, so you lied to me when you first told me you liked me?
No
thats when i started to like you
i'm so confused
But I didn't start liking you until you told me you liked me...
I know lets just leave this alone please
I still...but...I'm so confused....ok...
Thank you darlin'
Now I'm angry and I don't think I ever want to see him again, and I kind of hate him now. I want him hated. Ok, fine, I wasn't his first choice, and it hurt a lot that he felt like he settled, but in our last conversation where I told him everything I had to say, it sounded like he was sorry, and really didn't mean to hurt me the way he did. This time we talked, I didn't feel anything. He didn't say he loved me when I signed off, and obviously he doesn't even care enough to make me okay with us being friends by going through the pain of explaining it to me. So what? He thinks it isn't hard for me? "it means no one else liked me and i was starting to like you, so instead of being lonely i settled for you."
Seriously, that fucking hurts. It hurt enough to make me want to hate him, just to hurt him. He'd deserve it.
But I really also wanted to say that George and I had sex again today and he moaned in between kisses, "I love you. I love you so much."
I loved the way he said it, so sincere and passionate, so I thought I'd put it here, that way next time I read this entry I'd remember his voice.
WHAT
DID I DO SOMETHING
When you said you settled for me, does that mean no one else liked you, and you got lonely?
Or does it mean that you didn't like anyone else and you got lonely?
it means no one else liked me and i was starting to like you, so instead of being lonely i settled for you
OW =(
So wait, so you lied to me when you first told me you liked me?
No
thats when i started to like you
i'm so confused
But I didn't start liking you until you told me you liked me...
I know lets just leave this alone please
I still...but...I'm so confused....ok...
Thank you darlin'
Now I'm angry and I don't think I ever want to see him again, and I kind of hate him now. I want him hated. Ok, fine, I wasn't his first choice, and it hurt a lot that he felt like he settled, but in our last conversation where I told him everything I had to say, it sounded like he was sorry, and really didn't mean to hurt me the way he did. This time we talked, I didn't feel anything. He didn't say he loved me when I signed off, and obviously he doesn't even care enough to make me okay with us being friends by going through the pain of explaining it to me. So what? He thinks it isn't hard for me? "it means no one else liked me and i was starting to like you, so instead of being lonely i settled for you."
Seriously, that fucking hurts. It hurt enough to make me want to hate him, just to hurt him. He'd deserve it.
But I really also wanted to say that George and I had sex again today and he moaned in between kisses, "I love you. I love you so much."
I loved the way he said it, so sincere and passionate, so I thought I'd put it here, that way next time I read this entry I'd remember his voice.