the smell of this sweater is driving me insane...
I don't know what's wrong with me. Starting tomorrow I live a new life. I just need somebody right now and there's no one to run to. Why can't I just be a normal happy person. I miss my old friends, I miss my band, I miss my life. Everyone is so different now and I am too. I'm spinning out of control and I really need someone to fall back on right now. I'm scared of me, life, my family, and the future. I'm throwing my life away and I'm so stressed and I just want to explode. I just need someone to talk at times like this. People don't understand, I can't just talk anytime, I have to be ready. Everytime I'm ready I can't just expect everyone to drop they're lives to be there for me. It's my fault and I need to deal with my own fucking problems. I'm tired of relying on everyone else because everyone else is not always there. Sorry everyone, don't worry about me, I'm just a weird guy. Tomorrow I will find a way to live again. Until next time... I love the roller coaster that is my life. I think everyone left me far behind a long time ago. Friendship means nothing in this world. Love is a lie. You can't trust anyone anymore and it's waste of time trying to be happy...