sometimes I amaze even myself...
So I've decided to cool it on the drugs and/or alcohol for a while. It makes me a person I don't want to be. I say things I don't mean, I act like an idiot. All it does is bring out all my stress and make me turn into and instant asshole. Life is getting kind of weird and pretty scary, I'm scared of the future for once after years of pretending like the future dosn't exist. It is there and I'm going to have to face it sometime. With a total debt of probably close to 5 thousand dollars I really need to stop and think about what I'm doing...