A most amazing moment, as a S&H fan, I never, ever stop learning...
If I had a dime for every time I was asked, "How can you still watch--still love--an old television show? I have a lot of money. But wealth? I already have a wealth that money cannot buy. The treasures of my life, are priceless. and yes, among those treasures is my lifelong love for the two actors that portrayed those characters--real life treasures--and the joy, the intensity, and the love of the fictional characters. I had the honor of being a fan who got to experience the show, as it aired. I have such happy, meaningful memories of those years. The joy remains, as the seasons have turned, again and again, year after year. That first season, my cherished first season of so many firsts...there is not one episode that I don't absolutely adore. But my top three--not only in the first season--but my top three of the entire series, are The Fix, Shootout, and A Coffin For Starsky. Captivated by the newfound depth of love I felt for those two characters--because they loved each other on a level that--to this day--mystifies me...How can I still watch--and love--this old television show? The answer comes so effortlessly. It is a part of my soul, my joy, my warmth, my heart...something that has given so much to what I believe in. I don't have to watch it, I want to watch it. I want it in my life! Always and always and always. So, I felt compelled to watch ACFS, last night. It always brings me back to the very night it aired, and how I felt. How intensely compelling it was. LIke a lot of fans, I can repeat the ep, word for word, throughout the entire thing. Not just because I have had it on video tape and DVD, for long, but because I audio recorded it, as a kid, and listened to it, constantly. Ah, memories:-) But last night, while watching my favorite moment in the episode--the heartbreaking moment when they have to say goodbye, and Hutch, ever so slowly and gently makes his way to Starsk...I've seen that moment, watched that moment, a thousand times. I always felt the unbearable pain of what was happening, what they knew was happening, and I always saw the tears in their eyes. How they said so much--so much--said it all--without ever uttering a word. Yet, last night, for the first time ever, I saw the glistening single tear running down Hutch's face. I looked closer, I looked closer and closer, and I saw it, crystal clear, that single tear symbolized all that he was losing. Why had I never seen it before? I have seen that particular scene, over and over and over...and yet, never noticed that tear before. I was mesmerized by it. Amazing. Why do I still love this old television show? I keep learning, I keep growing, I keep understandng, more and more, about what it has taught me. I am so proud to be a fan of this show. So proud of what Paul and David gave. And continue to give...