couples_therapy 20.4: I make her cry

[mybrothershadow]

[Danny Ocean: Does he make you laugh?
Tess Ocean: He doesn't make me cry.]

Right now, I don’t even know where she is. She left the beach house and I’ve checked her house in New York. She’s not in LA and she’s just…gone. I can’t say I’m sorry or send flowers And I can’t stalk her invisibly. She’s run away from me and she doesn’t want to be found

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[john_ispyro]

[mybrothershadow]

She says she's with a friend in her journal. That's all I know. I'm in NYC on top of the roof of my apartment.

[john_ispyro]

[mybrothershadow]

Because...because I nearly blew up half of New York City with my powers. Because she was happy when she thought I was normal. Because she said yes when I was normal and no when I wasn't. Because I'm an idiot coward who lets fear dictate things in my life. And it wasn't long after I realized they really were coming back that you 'died'. I couldn't pile that on her on top of that. She had enough to deal with. She didn't need a potentially explosive boyfriend. She wouldn't even fucking talk to me for like a week after you died. It just never seemed like the right time. And seriously, when I asked her, I wasn't sure what the hell was going on with my powers.

[john_ispyro]

[mybrothershadow]

I'm not blaming your death on my not telling her. And it wasn't lying. It was omitting the truth. I thought that I could just pretend to be normal for her. It never occured to me any long run shit.

Well yippie fucking k-ay for you. You're a better person than I am I think it already has.Yeah I should have told her. I know that now at the time, it seemed like the right thing to do to keep her happy.

[john_ispyro]

[mybrothershadow]

Yeah...sorry, I'm--I love her. Beyond reason. I can't-I'm not really fit for talking to other people right now I"m not pushing her and I'm not hiding...okay so I'm invisible most of the time right now but she knows how to find me. I'm letting her dictate how this goes, or how it doesn't. *shrug* I am a moron and it's good she has your support. She needs it.

[john_ispyro]

[mybrothershadow]

Thanks. I don't know whether to count myself out yet or not. I haven't called her or anything I'm just...I guess I'm just hoping she feels like forgiving me.

[john_ispyro]

[mybrothershadow]

Not much.

See part of me wants to call her and part of me thinks I should let her call me. Mostly, I'm pretty damn confused. We've never really broken up. Even when I left and came back she didn't do this.

[john_ispyro]

[mybrothershadow]

When you got a healthier relationship than I did.

Yeah...it's good advice and I think you're right. I'll give hre a call.

[john_ispyro]