because this is where i go when im not ok
i hate that that is pretty much what this journal has mostly become... a place for me to vent when i cant do it out loud... or i cant do it right.
i need to go back to nyc... remember that i am 22 and have a life of my own. i need to not stay at my moms house when i come back to visit. i need to just figure out my own transportation... even if its cabs. i need to not attach myself to stupid ideas and silly moments. i need to throw a punch at him. i need to realize where i do not fit... and not worry myself about that... because theres plenty of other places i DO fit. i need to calm down right now. i need to get back to a real sleeping schedule... and get back in shape. really, to sum up... im currently a blob of lazy, tactless, silly, riled up, stupid girlishness who has regressed back to high school and is not dealing well with any of it. i feel like ive eaten an angry burger... and im past the angry part and on to the uneasy feeling in my stomach... and i just wish i had never gone to burger king in the first place. heh.
i need to go back to nyc... remember that i am 22 and have a life of my own. i need to not stay at my moms house when i come back to visit. i need to just figure out my own transportation... even if its cabs. i need to not attach myself to stupid ideas and silly moments. i need to throw a punch at him. i need to realize where i do not fit... and not worry myself about that... because theres plenty of other places i DO fit. i need to calm down right now. i need to get back to a real sleeping schedule... and get back in shape. really, to sum up... im currently a blob of lazy, tactless, silly, riled up, stupid girlishness who has regressed back to high school and is not dealing well with any of it. i feel like ive eaten an angry burger... and im past the angry part and on to the uneasy feeling in my stomach... and i just wish i had never gone to burger king in the first place. heh.