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Wow I had such a great time this weekend. Like seriously like on the list of greatest times of my life. And I am extatic for the new friends that I have now, and i'm not going to go into a whole rant about Phi Sigma Pi and it wouldn't of happened without but i will say that i am greatful...
It makes it so much easier to not think about the friends that i've lost and might be loosing. I can honestly say that i've made some pretty good friends and i'm not friends with everyone casue thats fucking impossible, but the four that i've bonded with the most Jen Liz Heather and Katrina are truely now some of the best friends i have. Jen is awsome very quite, Liz is this thing that cracks me up goes to church wheres sweathers and shit but listens to the hip hop and says the funniest things that if you ever saw her you would be like wtf for example i was rollin one deep when i came to school today, that means i was by myself...WTF i love her. Fuck heather is a freshman and she lives in brick nj. she was on drumline for them for all four years she played the snare. and shes so genuine we'll be in the library doing library hours she'll lean over and go "hey hens can we umm hangout this weekend" sure heather anytime you want. and then theres Katrina, my BFF well at least here after dwayne of course...lol We hangout gossip smoke each other out help each other out were there for each other it seems. she asked me to be her brides maid last night after some jungle juice, lol thats two. no for real tho shes the one i'm closest to i can yell at her and shes doesn't get defensive or mad at me for stupid shit, she just yells back.
the thing is i still have this nagging problem. I'm still afried to loose people. I'm not willing to put myself out there all the way. And this is only with friendships what if "someone special" comes along. I wish i could take it all back. I wish...I just wish. I'm never gunna mess up another friendship...i can promise myself that if nothing eles.
It makes it so much easier to not think about the friends that i've lost and might be loosing. I can honestly say that i've made some pretty good friends and i'm not friends with everyone casue thats fucking impossible, but the four that i've bonded with the most Jen Liz Heather and Katrina are truely now some of the best friends i have. Jen is awsome very quite, Liz is this thing that cracks me up goes to church wheres sweathers and shit but listens to the hip hop and says the funniest things that if you ever saw her you would be like wtf for example i was rollin one deep when i came to school today, that means i was by myself...WTF i love her. Fuck heather is a freshman and she lives in brick nj. she was on drumline for them for all four years she played the snare. and shes so genuine we'll be in the library doing library hours she'll lean over and go "hey hens can we umm hangout this weekend" sure heather anytime you want. and then theres Katrina, my BFF well at least here after dwayne of course...lol We hangout gossip smoke each other out help each other out were there for each other it seems. she asked me to be her brides maid last night after some jungle juice, lol thats two. no for real tho shes the one i'm closest to i can yell at her and shes doesn't get defensive or mad at me for stupid shit, she just yells back.
the thing is i still have this nagging problem. I'm still afried to loose people. I'm not willing to put myself out there all the way. And this is only with friendships what if "someone special" comes along. I wish i could take it all back. I wish...I just wish. I'm never gunna mess up another friendship...i can promise myself that if nothing eles.