A lot of shit
This is freakin nuts and I feel exhusted after dealing with it. My head hurts and I'm tired but it's to be expected. I want to lay in bed and sleep for a couple days and wake up to all of this mess gone, but that's not really possible. I wish I could freakin talk to someone but I'm afriad that when I talk to someone, they will turn around and talk to someone and the list goes on. Crazy, the only person I trust enough to talk to is involved and really doesn't need anymore stress. Christmas is right around the corner and I still have not bought enough presents. I have gotten all of my cards mailed and I'm handing the rest out at work this weekend. My stupid job is being riduclous agian, too many stupid rules that no one is going to follow anyway so why post them. Up early tommrow because somehow I have became my grandma's babysitter for whenever she needs to go somewhere. I wasn't asked but told I would do it and now I get to watch a two month old a four month old a two year old and a three year old, could someone please tell me how that is going to turn out well because I'm not seeing the way. Apple Cinnamon candles don't smell great. Someone asked me the other day what I'm looking for and I turned to her and said I had no clue but may find out one day. You know what I just realized this post sucks and is pretty damn depressing. All I am doing is complaing about life it shouldn't be this way, it's the freakin holidays and I am going to be happy come hell or high water. So happy stuff starts tommrow this BS goes out the window tonight and I sleep like a baby for the next five hours.