can the good out weigh the bad?
The good news is I am starting not to give a fuck anymore, and that's always good for one's soul. Two or Three days left of work not sure about Monday but would acutally enjoying working agian. Cal didn't bring me my choc. cupcake tonight though :( He never agreed to it I just asked him nicely and reminded him on his way out the door last night. I've had a blast working the last two nights with Chuck. He is prob. one of the easiest people in the world to get along with. Not to mention MRI is a cakewalk compared to Catscan so anytime I get to work in there I normally will take the offer. Last night I got to work with Chuck and Cal and we had lots of fun. YAY, lets see what else. I saw Kristin tonight at work, she just broke up with Jimmy so she's ready to go out were going out Tuesday night, I believe were going to try and get in touch with Christy also so all three of us can go waste money on booze and fun. Can't beat that. Maybe if Rachel would ever call she could go with us. I want to go out like really out not just some local bar that stuff sucks I want to go to downtown Orlando. We can meet up with Jameson,Scott, and those guys and it can be one big party. I was supposed to get my puppy this next week but I think I am going to wait until our next paycheck because it should be pretty huge. Big paychecks are always good. Loves them. I don't think I've said that in a long time. Oh the kitten, Two days ago Bicey chased a little kitten up a tree, and the poor thing was stuck for about eighteen hours in the tree, crying all night. Pam and I tried to get it down but it was way to high. So I went out there Thur. morning determend that I was not going to listen to it cry all night/day agian, and the poor thing had fallen out. But I brought it in we got food in it, got it calmed down and now it is sleeping on the couch behind me. Good thing I was seriously stressing out about the poor thing. It's two fifty five in the morning and now I am starting to feel tired. It's about time, I really need to sleep late in the morning, this weekend is going to suck. I'm really hungry too but I can not find one thing that sounds good to eat. BLAH, Chuck made me a grilled cheese at work, it was pretty tasty but it put me right on the edge of being hungry and being full so now I can't find anything just to give me enough to get through the night, which means I wont eat and by tommrow I'll be starving. That's always a great feeling to wake up with, but I guess it will give me something to think about other than everything else that I don't want to think about right now. Oh well I am going to bed this is pretty boring. count down... Two minutes... I'm listening to Master P it's pretty old and I'm not really sure why it's on the computer but hell he kicked ass when this album came out, and we rode around all the time listening to it. This cd kicked ass and I used to know it word for word, anymore I think I still know all the words but I can't keep up. I've been slacking listening to rap music and now I'm a bit out of touch. Trick Daddy was also an awesome album We had all that shit and stood on the porch all hours of the night dancing/drinking/smoking listening to this shit. We were some awesome people, we definitly had a great life. Isn't it funny how a certain song/album can bring back a whole flood of memories that you hadn't thought about in forever. I am starting to believe that I have been thinking entirely too much lately and need to give it up. When is the last time you truly felt happy? like the whole world could cave in around you and you would be just fine sitting there in that spot for the rest of your life. It's been a long while for me and I want to feel that right now. I need some good stuff to happen so I can smile and mean it. Nothing horrible is happening, I do feel one thing sucks pretty bad but am kinda over it, it's just nothing GOOD has happened it feels like I'm just living to get by instead of living to enjoy the moment like I normally do. I think it's been two minutes and I messed up the fuckin countdown. Shit Oh well I'll get over it. I noticed the greatest line ever wrote in a song today and it made me feel happy all evening. It's fall out boys "Sugar were going down" it's the line where he says I'm just a knot in your bedpost but your just a line in this song. I love that because I really wish everyone could just be a line in a song for me. I believe I will start telling people that when they piss me off, but wait I don't write songs so I guess it wouldn't really work with me but I can make myself think that's all they are. Another good one is Something Corporate's Straw Dog If she get's nowhere in life at least she know's she's pretty. Haha I wish that could fit me. Maybe one day I'll make myself start believing the lines I hear in songs. Wait I do believe one it's another Fall Out Boy song that says The Best Part Of BeLIEve is the Lie. Because most of the time when I believe it's just a lie I've told myself to make something ok. One day I really should stop doing shit like that. Alright count down is gone and beyond so I'm out.