soemtimes i think i should give up

[mybonesareyours]

especially after nights like last night.. im so mad at myself right now, but im trying to get over it and see this as a new day and use my failure to push me to do well for the rest of the weekend.. knowing how i feel now can be great inspi for not eating for the weekend, cuz now i know how i feel.. disgusting, bloated, full, nasty, nauseous, fat.. and i dont want to feel that way again.. i felt so skinny.. well sorta, yesterday, so if i keep it up i will feel it again.. im having 2 coffees today, mainly to keep me awake and also to make the dexis go down easier.. but thats all im allowing myself.. i will do this.. i have faith in myself to do it.. though all your support and love helps me too.. so thanks guys.. im glad i have found a community where i feel that i am accepted.. ive made some plans for myself for the coming weeks until i reach my UGW which i have now moved to 87.. but i will take it in stride.. so here goes

cw: 103
lw: 99
hw: 127

GW1 (june 24)- 98
GW2 (july 4)- 93
GW 3 (july 13)- 90
UGW ( july 31)- 87

what do you think--think i can do it? i think so, hope so, wish so, NEED TO
and in order to reach these goals this is my food plan for today, friday, saturday, and sunday:

Thurs
B- coffee with dex
L- dex
D- coffe with dex

Fri
B- coffee with dex
L- dex
D- instant oatmeal (130 cals)

Sat
B- coffee with dex
L- instant oatmeal (130 cals)
D- coffee with dex

Sun
B- coffee with dex
L- instant oatmeal (130 cals)
D- coffee with dex

for next week ill wait to write out.. its gonna be tough, especially going away on thursday.. although monday is the only day i really really have to worry about before thursday.. tuesday and wednesday i work all day, so i should be okay.. anwyay.. thats enough of me ranting on and on.. good luck and stay strong girlies.. and boyses..

<3