i suck
ok look i know you all dont get it but im going. I know you guys are worried about me and im am aslo for myself. I knowYou think i should not go and i know that i should not go. This is just something i think i have to do.
I'm leaving on the 30th if things go as i forsee them i will be spending my new years alone in a small bunk bed, wishing i was back here with you guys.
You will never understand but i have to go and do this.
At least i'll get to see MOTH PLAY
oh and kara is back in town as of yesterday she shall be joining me tomorrow evening, yes i know when will it end. AS much as i am hurting right now i think i my decission for tomorrow has just been made easier for me. But this is me and my heart is still elsewhere.
not to mention "straight as an arrow as an arrow"
after all im still going
if for no other reason now than to piss you all off