Change of plans (abrupt)
I took the general GRE today and well, it didn't really go as I had envisioned. I got a 410 on verbal and a 450 on the quantitative (significantly less than I got on my practice test) So unfortunately I will not be applying to grad school for fall 2009. I have decided that I am going to wait and apply for fall 2010. I had a panic thinking all was lost and that I have no idea what I am going to do when I graduate in May. But I figure I will just try to get a job as an academic adviser at the U of U for a year and when I don't have a million things on my plate try to take the GRE again. It is now too late to take it again before the scores are due for grad school. Today I felt as if I had been reduced to a score, a number and nothing more. It was a horrible feeling that took quite some time to dissipate. I feel a bit sad, disappointed, and shocked. I am excited to start the clinical psychology program and I don't want to wait another year, but I can wait. This means Wendy will be 28 and I will be 29 when we start having kids which is fine. Part of the reason why I wanted to get going is so I could be 28 and Wendy would be 27. But I guess a year doesn't make that much of a difference. I just hope that I don't wait around for a year just to be rejected.
Has this sunk in..... not really. But it will, and life goes on. Since this is what I really want to do it will be worth the wait. The end will justify the means even if the means are painful to face. I cried a few tears, yelled into the air at no one, went grocery shopping in a dream daze and then here I am.
Yes this hurts and I don't know when it will stop hurting, but for now I have two bachelors degrees to finish up. At least nothing will stand in the way of that and it is definitely nice to solely focus on that. Graduation in May will actually seem like a graduation because I will have a break which is one major perk of this situation that I have found myself in.
Has this sunk in..... not really. But it will, and life goes on. Since this is what I really want to do it will be worth the wait. The end will justify the means even if the means are painful to face. I cried a few tears, yelled into the air at no one, went grocery shopping in a dream daze and then here I am.
Yes this hurts and I don't know when it will stop hurting, but for now I have two bachelors degrees to finish up. At least nothing will stand in the way of that and it is definitely nice to solely focus on that. Graduation in May will actually seem like a graduation because I will have a break which is one major perk of this situation that I have found myself in.