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its been such a long night... so crazy... i was only supposed to stay at work til 12, ended up helping til about 2, then went with Angel to drop everyone off, like Jean was first, then Carrie and omfg, im so glad i found out where she lives cause i used to live over there and now im gunna go over there and chill with her. and fuck my job im quitting tomorrow... i hope. im sick of saying how sick i am of that place. i should be or have been promoted already cause i bust my ass, and get nothing in return but shit for pay. so fuck them. i wanna go somewhere else where i can make the same or better doing less hard work than there. they're screwing me over. Carrie said she's getting a tatoo with my name across her chest that says milissa parker owns me and im her lover lol. im her main... uh... thing lol and Angel's her second. and she was like whatever happens between the runner and the presenter, stays between the runner and the presenter ^_^ but anyway, after he dropped them off, he asked me if i wanted to go play pool and i was like sure, cause i dont wanna come home anymore, and i put off as long as i can until i have to. cause my moms been getting really drunk and its pissing me off, cause shes not the happy kind of drunk, shes the abusive kind and im sick of being yelled at for shit thats not even my fault and for her forgetting cause shes so fucking drunk out of her mind. ill come home and she'll be piss ass drunk wasted on the couch and she'll never wake up til long after the sun's come up. i guess it wont be long until i start getting hit and having shit thrown at me again... i guess i really gotta watch my back and my mouth... i just really wanna get the fuck away from here and her... i really dont know how much more i can take or how much longer i will last. anyway... i guess i had a suicidal though the other day? well i didnt really think about killing myself, i just thought about how pointless life was, even tho there's good with the bad, i just dont give a fuck anymore. nothing has made me happy enough to change my mind. gunna go crash now with that thought in mind...