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hung with bob and travis. the usual. but we were at my house and i signed online real quick and someone was online that everytime they are i get really mentally stressed and start feeling sick. but this time it was worse. i almost threw up again. travis said it was cause i care so much it hurts, and makes me sick. and that makes sense. but i wish i never felt this way. i feel like im being torn between two people again. the person who i really like, and the other person that just... iunno what to say of them. im beginning to feel tired and im thinking maybe i should sleep cause i have to get up in two hours or so. i still really like this other person and im tempted to give into jealousy at times when i hear they're fancying someone else, if only for that brief moment in time. but, tonight i really wanted to tell them, and i almost let myself go and spilled it all out, but some stupid little thing is always holding me back. like, i'm afraid to move on. and now i guess, that i've finally admitted that to myself, maybe i can...