the people and the places i love
As i spend more and more days at Eastside i realize that I really am so lonely and i have no one here.
I'm sitting here in 6th period, adjacent to Liz, across from Zach, who is chatting carelessly and loudly to Donnie who is across from him. I really hate this.
Yes, i have associates at this school.
People who i talk to who maybe like a band or two that i like
and maybe wear chuck taylors
and maybe sweaters because its cool
but other than that... nothing.
No real connections, no friends for weekend, no people who i know i could call at anytime and theyd be there.
no characteristics that my old friends have/had.
its so depressing to think about.
I really miss Carly, Dale, Kaleigh, Robbie, and countless others who with just one smile, or one inside joke could make me happy for a month.
Discussing Endurance with Robbie and Mitch during lunch,
waving to Kaleigh in the halls and passing *cringe* each other notes (we're oh so lame :-)!)
Eating lunch with Carly, walking together to 5th period, and then laughing endlessly at the poeple in our english class...
Pulling Dale by that damn ring on his cuff...
those little things i remember and i love.
and damn this is such an emo entry
but i really really REALLY miss all of that.
and now i have nothing.
sure, Liz, Brittany, and Alex C. are cool
and we have fun
but its just not the same
and i dont think i'll ever be able to
allow them to take the space of what i once had.
05. goodie bags i made
04. free days
03. sunny delight
02. jeremy
01. alexander
I'm sitting here in 6th period, adjacent to Liz, across from Zach, who is chatting carelessly and loudly to Donnie who is across from him. I really hate this.
Yes, i have associates at this school.
People who i talk to who maybe like a band or two that i like
and maybe wear chuck taylors
and maybe sweaters because its cool
but other than that... nothing.
No real connections, no friends for weekend, no people who i know i could call at anytime and theyd be there.
no characteristics that my old friends have/had.
its so depressing to think about.
I really miss Carly, Dale, Kaleigh, Robbie, and countless others who with just one smile, or one inside joke could make me happy for a month.
Discussing Endurance with Robbie and Mitch during lunch,
waving to Kaleigh in the halls and passing *cringe* each other notes (we're oh so lame :-)!)
Eating lunch with Carly, walking together to 5th period, and then laughing endlessly at the poeple in our english class...
Pulling Dale by that damn ring on his cuff...
those little things i remember and i love.
and damn this is such an emo entry
but i really really REALLY miss all of that.
and now i have nothing.
sure, Liz, Brittany, and Alex C. are cool
and we have fun
but its just not the same
and i dont think i'll ever be able to
allow them to take the space of what i once had.
05. goodie bags i made
04. free days
03. sunny delight
02. jeremy
01. alexander