if i asked you to make funny faces with me in the mirror of the BATHROOM.
So you guys know:
A very large amount of my day was spent lamenting all of my mental failures and the intensity at which im lacking, in growth and in experimentation. So every few moments i was thinking, i might not be suited for a normal career. Meaning i cant go to study for a job, i cant work, and i dont have the mind state of someone who is ready to keep up with, and pass, what the real people do. I cant even observe other peoples ideas and views because that just reminds me of success(unatainable and unreasonable) All day i feel like everyone around me threw out there brains and are only operating on one or two levels. And most people have these warped perceptions of what being happy is, and what is acceptable. Looking, searching, and waste-ing alot of time, at least what i see, getting money or being a contemporary human. One that wants a specific technology or absolute-lee needs just the right information fed to them(include-ing but not only, sounds that shouldnt and arent music). the worst part being i am 2000 man sometimes, but i wish i wasnt at all. That exception is keeping me stale and mis-informed when it comes to earthly matters, and what it is my soul does. Overtime these things overpower me and i cant see a solutoin for any of them, main-lee due to consistant feelings of misplacement, like i wasnt born for these lives and these decisions.(and im not emotionally unstable like a mental ward patient, or an emotional teenager with tight pants haha) im hope-ing all these things are just lame distractions from what i need to do, and that i will eventually get over them. For now im tired of staying still, and i always want to learn from what real people do. the people that go about there buisness, but the buisness that they love and never grow tired of doing.
I'd gladly shoot anyone who read all of that( also i could stab and jab).
A very large amount of my day was spent lamenting all of my mental failures and the intensity at which im lacking, in growth and in experimentation. So every few moments i was thinking, i might not be suited for a normal career. Meaning i cant go to study for a job, i cant work, and i dont have the mind state of someone who is ready to keep up with, and pass, what the real people do. I cant even observe other peoples ideas and views because that just reminds me of success(unatainable and unreasonable) All day i feel like everyone around me threw out there brains and are only operating on one or two levels. And most people have these warped perceptions of what being happy is, and what is acceptable. Looking, searching, and waste-ing alot of time, at least what i see, getting money or being a contemporary human. One that wants a specific technology or absolute-lee needs just the right information fed to them(include-ing but not only, sounds that shouldnt and arent music). the worst part being i am 2000 man sometimes, but i wish i wasnt at all. That exception is keeping me stale and mis-informed when it comes to earthly matters, and what it is my soul does. Overtime these things overpower me and i cant see a solutoin for any of them, main-lee due to consistant feelings of misplacement, like i wasnt born for these lives and these decisions.(and im not emotionally unstable like a mental ward patient, or an emotional teenager with tight pants haha) im hope-ing all these things are just lame distractions from what i need to do, and that i will eventually get over them. For now im tired of staying still, and i always want to learn from what real people do. the people that go about there buisness, but the buisness that they love and never grow tired of doing.
I'd gladly shoot anyone who read all of that( also i could stab and jab).