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i completely wiped-out today.
i went to bed at 4:30 in the morning today, and woke up at 7 with a violent stomachache. it could be from the overload of french vanilla coffee creamer that i so willingly poured into my coffee earlier in the night, but i think it was because of major anxiety. i've been having really crazy dreams lately. they've turned into more of a burden rather than a pleasant "i'm floating on a balloon" kind of dream (although i'm not really sure how that would work). it's like all of my anxieties in real life now pester me in my subconcious! and it only gets worse because they are enormously exaggerated and unrealistic. it's a plague.
i feel really really guilty for missing school. and i wanted to go to school but my mother was like "um, i think you should stay home." ah, now i will have to face all of the stuff i've been dreading for today, tomorrow.
god, i really want school to end.
out of the schools i've gotten into so far, i think my mother wants me to go to uc davis. could you guys see me at uc davis? i personally don't think i would fare so well in "farm-land." i think i would be happier at usf. but then again, usf is insanely expensive whereas i could go to uc davis for a very very more-than-reasonable tuition. hopefully i can get into some of the schools i applied to in the east-coast. i think i would be happiest over there.
on another note, i am OBSESSED with poppy-seed muffins. i've been eating them non-stop!
i went to bed at 4:30 in the morning today, and woke up at 7 with a violent stomachache. it could be from the overload of french vanilla coffee creamer that i so willingly poured into my coffee earlier in the night, but i think it was because of major anxiety. i've been having really crazy dreams lately. they've turned into more of a burden rather than a pleasant "i'm floating on a balloon" kind of dream (although i'm not really sure how that would work). it's like all of my anxieties in real life now pester me in my subconcious! and it only gets worse because they are enormously exaggerated and unrealistic. it's a plague.
i feel really really guilty for missing school. and i wanted to go to school but my mother was like "um, i think you should stay home." ah, now i will have to face all of the stuff i've been dreading for today, tomorrow.
god, i really want school to end.
out of the schools i've gotten into so far, i think my mother wants me to go to uc davis. could you guys see me at uc davis? i personally don't think i would fare so well in "farm-land." i think i would be happier at usf. but then again, usf is insanely expensive whereas i could go to uc davis for a very very more-than-reasonable tuition. hopefully i can get into some of the schools i applied to in the east-coast. i think i would be happiest over there.
on another note, i am OBSESSED with poppy-seed muffins. i've been eating them non-stop!