gonna be ok.

[mybloodylip]

Really taking the time to go back and read what ive written here makes me realize how little i knew of tv production my first couple semesters. I still have the same passion and i still dont think i know much at all, but ive gotten better, and ive gotten further in the past year than i ever could have imagined. i just always have to continue to prove myself. Hearing Ed at the Frequency meeting say, "the reason why all of you are sitting around this table right now is that you have proven yourself to us and to the television dept," means so much. I will continue to grow and improve. I really look up to my friends and try to learn from them the things they excel at....and i hope that one day people can look up to me for the same reasons...it's such a scarey, exciting, mundane, exhausting, hectic....and rewarding industry.  Ive never push myself so hard for anything else. ive never racked in so many 12 hour days, and have not been pissy when i got home. now THAT says something. hahaha. becuase it is hard...and there's alot of ladder climbing....so yea, i need to revisit my passion and let myself feel why im doing what im doing..and always looking for what should be next.

okay...so now having a day off...i will clean my apt. my parents are stopping by this afternoon, so free food is gonna happen. i think i will head to the gym too...-nods-