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pain in my chest. i feel it shattering with each passing hour. hope of reuniting is fading. i said it was a possibility, i had no idea it was such a big one. im turning cold again already. ice fucking cold just like my years past. it hurts now but will lonely security follow? i dont know. my skin is turning to stone and my heart is becoming black once more. somewhere deep in my mind i knew this would happen. i knew since i was just 13 that some people were meant to be alone. i am one of those people it seems. i am not a lover. i am a destroyer and i am filled with hate. the rage corrodes the memories of love and happiness. this is my true nature, this is what i really am. you made me forget what i really am. i am a monster. i always have been. i always will be. monsters dont fall in love. my heart was just waiting to be broken all this time. i had to prepare for it. i destroyed myself. i destroyed myself. i destroyed myself.