look around there is no one else...
so i just had one of the most strange amazing moments in my life. and i'm so glad i had that because everything seems all right now.
i had met this waiter at one of my favorite resteraunts... and i thought he was amazing. and i had gone back and hadn't seen him there... but the last time i was there and he was my waiter i gave him a card with my name on it and number and said we should hang out. i felt really good about doing that.
i never heard from him.
i was out tonight with ellen and bevan.
on the way walking home on avenue a i pass this attractive boy in a group of guys. he passes me and then starts calling i know you. i continue walking until i hear him saying i know you i know you louder. so i stop and turn around and he walks up to me. and he says i know you. i'm like from where... he said that he used to wait tables at max until he was fired for telling them they had bad music. he then asked me what my name was. i said illyse. he said jesse. we shook hands. he reeked of alcohol. i felt glad that he recognized me. he had changed his hair and i almost didn't remember him.
he told me this was his last night in new york. that he was moving to montana tomorrow. a place he used to spend his summers. some national park. i said how amazing and how beautiful that will be.
i told him i once slipped him a card. he said he saw and remembered that card and said he knew he was moving and so he didn't call.
i told him how unfortunate it was that he was not ever going to be in my life. i asked him if he was ever coming back here. he said maybe in 10 years.
i said until then. and wished him luck in his new life in a new place.
he did the same.
it was the best goodbye of my life. the best goodbye to a relationship that never began. and showed me how indirectly people are connected... and how someone i barely knew could have such an effect on my life.
it means nothing and it means so much at the same time. i'm really glad we both shared that moment.
i wonder if he'll ever think of me again.
i had met this waiter at one of my favorite resteraunts... and i thought he was amazing. and i had gone back and hadn't seen him there... but the last time i was there and he was my waiter i gave him a card with my name on it and number and said we should hang out. i felt really good about doing that.
i never heard from him.
i was out tonight with ellen and bevan.
on the way walking home on avenue a i pass this attractive boy in a group of guys. he passes me and then starts calling i know you. i continue walking until i hear him saying i know you i know you louder. so i stop and turn around and he walks up to me. and he says i know you. i'm like from where... he said that he used to wait tables at max until he was fired for telling them they had bad music. he then asked me what my name was. i said illyse. he said jesse. we shook hands. he reeked of alcohol. i felt glad that he recognized me. he had changed his hair and i almost didn't remember him.
he told me this was his last night in new york. that he was moving to montana tomorrow. a place he used to spend his summers. some national park. i said how amazing and how beautiful that will be.
i told him i once slipped him a card. he said he saw and remembered that card and said he knew he was moving and so he didn't call.
i told him how unfortunate it was that he was not ever going to be in my life. i asked him if he was ever coming back here. he said maybe in 10 years.
i said until then. and wished him luck in his new life in a new place.
he did the same.
it was the best goodbye of my life. the best goodbye to a relationship that never began. and showed me how indirectly people are connected... and how someone i barely knew could have such an effect on my life.
it means nothing and it means so much at the same time. i'm really glad we both shared that moment.
i wonder if he'll ever think of me again.