Take Me Away From Here..
Hey, sup?
I'm listening to Aerosmith- I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing... It makes me cry everytime. Releasing all my emotions in one go and it all comes rushing out and I can't handle it. I cry and I think of all the bad things that have occurred and still occur in my life and how there's so many obstacles I can't get over. I think of my surroundings and how everyone is so rude, ignorant and nasty. Why are they all like this? Why can't they give you a smile rather than a dirty look? It's so hard to get my head around. Don't people want to live in peace and be nice to eachother? When people try and hurt me I don't get sad because of what they said or did, but rather why they did it. Why bother? I mean, did I do anything to them? No, they just feel the need to spit hatred at me like I'm their worst enemy but I'm not and it's upsetting. The fact people have to hold something against someone else and deliberately go out of their way to make them feel like crap without any real reason is just so pathetic. I know there are so many better places in the world to live in and I'm saddened 'cause I'm not there. I'm not in an environment full of amiable people who say "hi" with a wide smile and a friendly word or two. I'm not among intelligent, polite people who can say "please" and "thank you." I'm not in an area with a great neighbourhood and no ambulance coming around every minute because someone has just been murdered for looking at someone else's girlfriend. I'd do anything to be among a good section of the human race. -Sigh.- It's one of the only things I want in the world as well as to be happy and successful. I want really beautiful scenery to gaze at when I'm travelling to and from school or work. I want to stare in awe and the pretty flowers or peoples perfectly manicured lawns. I want clear, peaceful roads where you can smell fresh air and hear birds singing. - Yeah, cliche perhaps but I want it, and I need something like that. I've seen so many beautiful sights when I used to go on holiday and I don't go and see that anymore.. I miss it alot. I miss my family going everywhere and I miss when I used to "wow" at everything. It all just mesmerized me and still does when I do get a chance to see anything of the sort.. Most probably just advertisements on T.V that I
sigh over, heh. Even the smallest things astound me, even if it's just big, detached houses with a clear street- it's beautiful. I love watching sunsets on a beach, driving open top through a long empty lane in the country with no traffic and you can speed so fast you feel so refreshed and cleared. Seeing so many high towers like in New York and watching the night life with all the lights and colours or the clear oceans in Australia. Anything away from here. I don't want to be here. Take me away from here. This area has ruined my life. I cry at all the possibilities of me having a good life but then all my hopes and dreams never being furfilled in the future. I want to be amazed with the world and the beautiful things in it right now. I don't want to wait. I don't have any patience. I don't want further years amongst all these pathetic people.
Meh.
Just lost my train of thought.. I got caught up in listening to Nirvana.
I'm so happy 'cause today I found my friends; they're in my head. I'm so ugly, that's okay, 'cause so are you.
I'm listening to Aerosmith- I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing... It makes me cry everytime. Releasing all my emotions in one go and it all comes rushing out and I can't handle it. I cry and I think of all the bad things that have occurred and still occur in my life and how there's so many obstacles I can't get over. I think of my surroundings and how everyone is so rude, ignorant and nasty. Why are they all like this? Why can't they give you a smile rather than a dirty look? It's so hard to get my head around. Don't people want to live in peace and be nice to eachother? When people try and hurt me I don't get sad because of what they said or did, but rather why they did it. Why bother? I mean, did I do anything to them? No, they just feel the need to spit hatred at me like I'm their worst enemy but I'm not and it's upsetting. The fact people have to hold something against someone else and deliberately go out of their way to make them feel like crap without any real reason is just so pathetic. I know there are so many better places in the world to live in and I'm saddened 'cause I'm not there. I'm not in an environment full of amiable people who say "hi" with a wide smile and a friendly word or two. I'm not among intelligent, polite people who can say "please" and "thank you." I'm not in an area with a great neighbourhood and no ambulance coming around every minute because someone has just been murdered for looking at someone else's girlfriend. I'd do anything to be among a good section of the human race. -Sigh.- It's one of the only things I want in the world as well as to be happy and successful. I want really beautiful scenery to gaze at when I'm travelling to and from school or work. I want to stare in awe and the pretty flowers or peoples perfectly manicured lawns. I want clear, peaceful roads where you can smell fresh air and hear birds singing. - Yeah, cliche perhaps but I want it, and I need something like that. I've seen so many beautiful sights when I used to go on holiday and I don't go and see that anymore.. I miss it alot. I miss my family going everywhere and I miss when I used to "wow" at everything. It all just mesmerized me and still does when I do get a chance to see anything of the sort.. Most probably just advertisements on T.V that I
sigh over, heh. Even the smallest things astound me, even if it's just big, detached houses with a clear street- it's beautiful. I love watching sunsets on a beach, driving open top through a long empty lane in the country with no traffic and you can speed so fast you feel so refreshed and cleared. Seeing so many high towers like in New York and watching the night life with all the lights and colours or the clear oceans in Australia. Anything away from here. I don't want to be here. Take me away from here. This area has ruined my life. I cry at all the possibilities of me having a good life but then all my hopes and dreams never being furfilled in the future. I want to be amazed with the world and the beautiful things in it right now. I don't want to wait. I don't have any patience. I don't want further years amongst all these pathetic people.
Meh.
Just lost my train of thought.. I got caught up in listening to Nirvana.
I'm so happy 'cause today I found my friends; they're in my head. I'm so ugly, that's okay, 'cause so are you.