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i like nobody knows me or how i feel because of some of the things i have experienced, alot of the things, and as much as you may wish sometimes that all the things that have hurt you would have never happened, it just makes you all the more wise experiencing something you can learn from, i know now that people could never be able to understand me or know me, even if i did tell them everything about me, but i have never told anyone everything i dont think people can comprehend everything ive been through or understand the depth of my life. at many times we all wish we had that perfect world where nothing could hurt us and everything could just fall into place, all i can say is life is what we make it, and that nothing could ever be perfect, but if we try to make our lives something we want it to be, than maybe we can make life worth living and know there is something more that is out there. i dont even know who i am, sometimes i lie in my bed and wonder why i stay awake during the day. i havent made a difference in this world, i havent improved anything, i havent cured a disease, and i havent even been to college. But once i know that i have made someone smile, when i make eye contact with a stranger, or make someone laugh when they were sad, or stopped someone from doing something stupid, when i hear my name called from far away, or see my friends running to give me a hug, the feeling inside i get knowing that someone thought about me, if even just for a split second, thats what makes life worth living. so dispite all the bad things i realize now that there must be a reason to keep on living.