I'm addicted to drugs
I was really hoping that since I had cut my dose of meds in half (without my doctor's guidance or support) I would maybe even be able to temporarily go off entirely, partly because my bank acocunt is stupid and I didn't have my cash available to pay the $20 for my refill.
Well, it's definitely not as bad as it used to be, but I officially entered crappy withdrawls today from the effexor. Shaking, hot/cold flashes, and I knew that shortly around the corner would be the complete emotional instability.
Cutter is a sweetheart and got paid today and gave me the 20 bucks to buy my refill and I feel better.
Now that I've halved the dose however, I like the way I feel. I have the urge to write again, and read more often like I used to, and draw (even though I'm terrible at it). I know that the effexor was making a huge difference helping me manage my depression, and without it only God knows where I'd be.
But I think it made me feel less. And I don't know if I was over-sensitive before, or if I'm less sensitive than I should be now.
What's particularly scary is that I feel like a schizophrenic going off of depacote. I like the way I feel without my meds, though I know it may not be the healthiest mental health choice for me. I guess we'll see how it goes- I'm halving my dose, I can always bring it back up to normal again if need be.
Well, it's definitely not as bad as it used to be, but I officially entered crappy withdrawls today from the effexor. Shaking, hot/cold flashes, and I knew that shortly around the corner would be the complete emotional instability.
Cutter is a sweetheart and got paid today and gave me the 20 bucks to buy my refill and I feel better.
Now that I've halved the dose however, I like the way I feel. I have the urge to write again, and read more often like I used to, and draw (even though I'm terrible at it). I know that the effexor was making a huge difference helping me manage my depression, and without it only God knows where I'd be.
But I think it made me feel less. And I don't know if I was over-sensitive before, or if I'm less sensitive than I should be now.
What's particularly scary is that I feel like a schizophrenic going off of depacote. I like the way I feel without my meds, though I know it may not be the healthiest mental health choice for me. I guess we'll see how it goes- I'm halving my dose, I can always bring it back up to normal again if need be.