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[mybestenemy]

people are slowly leaving one by one we're at day two now...yesterday my two friends left me and one of them was my absolute best friend and i can't believe she is gone... i didnt cry until she left for security check and i couldnt stop crying i cried in the car on the way back and i cried again after. I was depressed at work, and i cried at night going to bed knowing that she doesnt live here anymore and i wont see her for awhile.. or be able to make fun of her...it;s just not the same over msn or the phone..it's not. i don't know what to do...our group is slowly falling apart...one of my best friends is leaving today for a year, and i am so glad she's coming back next year but still...it's a year. my good friend is leaving tomorrow and i am so devestated that he is leaving because we just got close this year and i wanted more but he is gone and im sad that we cant make our friendship go any further.
the worst thing about everyone leaving though is when everyone comes back for christmas how different are things going to be? how many people will change.. habe their new friends and forget about us? that is th eone thing that scares the hell out of me.. will any one still want to be my friend? I'm going to miss you guys so much and it breaks my heart to say goodbye