update
this year wasnt the best, could have been better if i woulda kept my priorities straight. Learned From my mistakes, gotta redeem myself for my own sake. 10th grade was stressful, but it was all preserverence, i got thru it and ended up on top, here i am in 11th grade, not close to where i wanna be, bullshits been getting in the way, mentality all fucked up, not in the right state of mind. Glad ive paused and reflected, so i could get right back on track, im tooo damn smart, too fuckin wise to be where im at with things, its been about 5 months since me and HIm have been over, its kinda wierd, ill admit at times i catch myself calling him..missing him..wantin that comfort, but its not fair to me and most importantly not to him. We both did our wrongs, and the best thing now is just to let go and move on. Hes talking to other girls, as well as im talking to others. For a sec i considered myself stupid, for the poor choices and actions ive done, but im only human, and realized i didnt do what the common ppl do, and thats fuck ppl for attention,i could have done all those things, and hoped he woulda gave me the time of day if i did, but i didnt. I havent been completely myself, thought changing my attitude/personality a bit would be for the good, but eh come to realize im perfectly fine the way i am, the way i was. On another note, i miss Audrey so much......time i swear, i hate time, 1 year.......how is that? i love you baby girl wherever you are.
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