0430 | 13/100
Title: 0430 - Misfortune: He's just that into him
Pairing: Eunhyuk/Donghae
Genre: au!psychiatrist ; angst ; romance
Rating: PG-13
Length: 13/100
Summary: Lee Hyukjae is a psychiatrist who gets too attached to his druggie patient, Lee Donghae. He soon finds himself knowing more than what he needs to.
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a/n: IT'S BEEN A MONTH O-O I'M SORRY FOR VERY LATE UPDATES. I SHALL TRY MY HARDEST TO POST OFTEN. I BLAME IT ALL ON THE RPS. OH. WHICH REMINDS ME...WHO ARE IN RPS IN AFF? LOL WTH.
THERE WILL BE AN UPDATE TOMORROW, TRUST ME.
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December 7, 2011 | Monday | 1:25PM
No, I am not mad at Yoochun and I don't blame him for anything at all. I just...I feel bad for him because no matter how much he likes Junsu, Junsu could never like him back. I know for a fact that Junsu won't. I trust the boy and he would never betray me. Yoochun kept his head hung low, his previous nervous wreck self slowly coming back. "Oh." I patted him on the shoulder which sort of alarmed him as he swatted my hand away. My widened eyes are enough to let him know how surprised I am. "I'm sorry. I was just...I didn't know that you'll get it. Not that I knew you won't get it but I didn't think you'd catch on easily."
"You shouldn't be surprised."
"Oh. Well...I sometimes forget you're my psychiatrist."
"That's a good thing then, I suppose. At least we're friends if anything."
"Yeah...friends." he said. "Friends don't betray each other."
"Yoochun, it's not like you planned falling in love with him in the first place."
"Aren't you supposed to be punching me right now?"
"Hey, I'm not that low. And besides," I have nothing to worry about, I wanted to say but I didn't want to crush his heart even more. "Junsu gets admirers all the time."
"So you're not mad?"
"Mad? Me? No, of course not, no. Look, I won't be bothered by your little crush on Junsu but I'm expecting you to know your place because Yoochun, as cliché as this may sound, I mean it. I may be your friend but I could be your enemy, too."
"I'm well aware of that. I just couldn't help it. If I have to stay away from him, I would."
"But you don't have to do that. I'm not telling you to stop liking him. Just don't cross the line."
"You know I won't."
"Don't disappoint me." with his nod, I chose to end the conversation. He's a grown man and I believe he knows what's right from wrong. "How's it going with Heechul?"
His body seemed to relax at the sudden change of topic. Did I make him feel that uneasy?
In all honesty, Yoochun makes me feel guilty. He's a friend and I want him to be happy. Junsu is his happiness, I suppose, but I can't possibly let go of my boyfriend just to make him happy, it's unfair on my part. It's not that I can't live without him but he's a big part of my life and not having him by my side would be very hard. He's my support pole and I don't function too well without him. I know it's hard to believe considering that we don't see much of each other everyday but knowing that he's just there, that I could see him anytime I want to, that he's just a call away, it makes me feel...relieved...something of that sort.
"He said I'm getting better each session." he replied with a nod. "It was awkward at first because our personalities don't really match. He's very..."
"...weird?" I prompted but he shook his head.
"No, that's mean. Eccentric. Yes, he's very eccentric. When I first saw him, I wasn't sure if we'll get along well because he's very intimidating but thankfully, everything went well."
I nodded. "That's really great, Yoochun. You're making progress. So I take it that you're okay now? I mean, other than that thing, is there anything you would want to tell me?"
"No," he replied with another shake of the head. "For once in my life, I could say that I'm happy. Like legit, Park Yoochun is happy." This was the first time that I saw him grin effortlessly. I was pretty much convinced that his happiness was genuine.
“What’s going on here?” Of course we just had to be interrupted by Junsu.
“Why are you here?” I asked. “Aren’t you supposed to be talking to Donghae?”
“Oh yeah. I was telling him about our date later.”
“Date? What date?”
Poking my nose, he chuckled. “I figured since we haven’t been hanging out these past few days and I miss you so much, I planned out a date. Isn’t that great?”
“It is, Junsu. But you see, we can’t go on a date tonight.” Junsu looked so dejected and I can’t even do anything about it. “I have other plans. I’m sorry babe. I’ll just make it up to you.”
“But I did so much for that date!”
I didn’t know what came to me that made me think of it but I just had the urge to say it out loud. “You could go with Yoochun?” The three chorused a what and I shrugged. “This isn’t about who you’re going with but about your effort. Junsu, I don’t want to waste your effort-“
“Effort?” Donghae butted in with a scoff. “Don’t you think you’re being insensitive now, Hyukjae? Junsu told me about the whole thing he planned out. Just… nevermind our appointment for tonight. Go on your date with Junsu, I’ll just go home.”
“But Donghae-“
“You’re going out with Donghae?”
I looked at the curious Junsu. “Well we were supposed to. It’s a part of his therapy.”
“Oh. Then just forget about the date, go with Donghae. I’ll just…” Junsu grabbed Yoochun’s hand and started walking out my office. “I’ll go with Yoochun hyung, bye.” and just like that, they were both out of my sight.
“If you’re gonna say you messed up, you really did.” I agreed with a nod. “You think he’s mad?”
I shuddered at the thought because yes, Junsu is furious and it might take me days to make him talk to me again. But I wasn’t gonna tell Donghae that. I didn’t want him to feel bad about anything. “No, we’ll be fine. He understands.”
"But you didn't really have to do that."
"I won't do it if I don't have to."
He nodded although I knew he wasn’t convinced and even during dinner I could feel his reluctance to be with me. “You know,” I told him. "You really should be loosening up right now. There's really nothing to worry about. Junsu might've acted that way but it's nothing serious. Trust me."
"You're not bluffing?"
"And what would I get from not telling the truth?"
He shrugged. "I could believe you, I suppose."
"You suppose?" I raised an eyebrow and watched him as he distracted himself with food. He ordered so much but I didn't think he could actually finish it all. I watched him, observed his every move and blinked repeatedly when he brought out a box of white chalk from his bag, taking out a piece and to my utter surprise, he munched on it as if it was dessert.
"D-donghae..." I reached out, trying to take the chalk from his hand. "Why are you eating that?!"
He shrugged, putting the box back where it belongs. "My comfort food."
"That's not food."
"To me, it is. It's non-toxic, calm your tits."
"Since when have you been doing that?" I asked, slumping back the chair.
"Just recently and don't make me talk about it." I nodded. He would eventually tell me so I'd rather wait than force him which would just probably annoy him.
Donghae never fails to surprise me.
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