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heyy
so lately, like the past two weeks, ive been in a little bit of a slump.
im really smoking too much. im worried about myself.
my own mom even said "michelle youre always high now."
its noticable. i feel so disconnected.
its so hard to break bad habbits.
i miss it when smoking was almost like getting drunk
like an exciting part of my weekends
not an occurence of every two hours.
and ive become an idiot
like i smoke in the school bathrooms?
yeah wicked cool.
nnott.
i feel like im burnt out at 17 and its not good.
and its harder getting out than in
and im tired and worn out and this cough is so gross i feel so old
sometimes i think if he was home i wouldnt smoke as much
because i would have more things to do with my time
like be with him.
i miss my brother too.
i miss a lot of things and people
i need to get back in touch with my self and life and surroundings
this is not me
so lately, like the past two weeks, ive been in a little bit of a slump.
im really smoking too much. im worried about myself.
my own mom even said "michelle youre always high now."
its noticable. i feel so disconnected.
its so hard to break bad habbits.
i miss it when smoking was almost like getting drunk
like an exciting part of my weekends
not an occurence of every two hours.
and ive become an idiot
like i smoke in the school bathrooms?
yeah wicked cool.
nnott.
i feel like im burnt out at 17 and its not good.
and its harder getting out than in
and im tired and worn out and this cough is so gross i feel so old
sometimes i think if he was home i wouldnt smoke as much
because i would have more things to do with my time
like be with him.
i miss my brother too.
i miss a lot of things and people
i need to get back in touch with my self and life and surroundings
this is not me