Im lost
Ok every one here is the deal. I don't no if my friends are reading my journal. Well if you are good you no some thing is wrong. If not shame on you. Just in case some of you have not noticed I have not been my self for a long time. Well things in my life are not getting any better. My fathers problems have gotten so much worse. Every time I go over to my parents house I feel like crying. My father goes into the hospital on fri. I am scared. I can't help but think of what could happen. Every time I think about it I start crying. Right now more then ever I need my friends. But it seams like I am alone. Some of my friends can't get a hold of me because of all the things going on in there life. I understand that. But there are some of my friends that I hate to say it don't have a life. Those people were to good to call me back so to them. FUCK OFF!!! No Jen I don't mean you. But I did call you back. LOL. So I guess what I am saying is HELP some one pick me up, take me out and get me shit faced. Some people no me to keep things inside. I'm trying not to. Any one who has sean me close my self out from the word knows that its not good. Any one who has not sean this happen soon if things don't get better I will be that way again. So I guess what I am saying is i'm lost.