Three situations.
Someone very special said she doesn’t want to talk to you anymore. She
left just like that but she never been gone from your sight. How can you not
think about her every time she appears on your sight?
The thing is, stupid brain of yours just don’t get it why. Why did she
decide to let you go in the first place, that is. But it is her decision, and
you decided to respect that, since she said she needs time.
You in fact know, both of you are pretending to be alright with the
matter but both of you are trying hard not to think much about it and just look
okay on the outside.
The truth is you are suffering so much on the inside. It feels like hell
each time you see her, doesn’t matter if it’s her smiling face or otherwise. It’s
awful to think you can’t be with her in times of her delight or her gloomy days
anymore.
The thing is, it’s been a while. It has been a while since she stated
that last statement of ‘Just stop.’ Around you people had try to cheer you up,
make you laugh, throw your sadness away, and supposed to make you forget about
it. Indeed, you felt a lil bit better. Yes, you laughed. Of course, the sadness
somehow had reduced. But never, never you will forget about it.
You keep your face straight to not worry the people you care. Things
had gone a bit okay after that, you even found someone that makes your heart
blooms. In a friendly way too, that is.
But then, it happened. Something happened; something that you can never
avoid to feel that way. You read something miserable about her life on her
personal blog, which many people follow it (not that it is a bad thing) and
there you go. You can’t stop your tears from flowing.
You wanted to comfort her so much, and tell her that you really love
her whole being, that you really appreciate every single thing she is, and
never once you thought that she’s an awful person she think she is.
But people around her whom she allows them to talk to her, did that already
for her. You’re glad they did, but somehow you wished you are one of that people.
You wished that she will listen to you, how you really feel, but you doubted
that she will. Because you still think that she despises you.
SITUATION NO 2
There's someone really
lovely, which always makes you smile. That's willing to hear everything from
you, even though it got nothing to do with her… She’s really a very nice
person, which made you really think, ‘Is there any nicer person in this world?
How can she be this thoughtful and caring?’
You thought all of
your problems would solve after meeting her, but then… She has problems in her
life too.
That made you think it
is your time to be the listener now. It is time the role to be reverse. You
wanted to give some deed to her too, since she did so much on you.
However, she prefers
to keep it to herself. In fact, she even pretends to be all okay about it, but
you just know the truth is the total opposite. You don’t want to force her into
telling you, but it is just so disturbing, thinking that she suffers so much
but then she wants to be a mute person when the topic is being brought up.
Of course, you respect
her privacy too, but still.. There’s this naggy feeling inside of you, wanting
to let her feel what have you felt when she helped you before.
And sometimes, you
even thought that maybe she doesn’t trust you, that’s why she’s not telling
anything.
SITUATION NO 3
You got a best friend,
an awesome friend, who is just so great at almost everything. She really is
someone, someone knowable in a certain world, and you are just a regular type
of person, but you never mind about it at all. It’s just that you felt a little
bit proud of having a friend like her.
She is a happy person,
as much as you like it, of course, and oh, how you glad that she is. She got so
many people encouraging her and supporting her in her doings, and it made you
feel blessed.
However you feel like its fading bit by bit.
And both of you don’t even know why. Of course, you still talk, and you still
play around with each other, but it’s kinda… Different now? You have no idea
yourself.
You thought that maybe because you both have
been busier these days so you seemed just can’t catch up with each other that
often. So, you tried to brush the thought off.
But then, when you think about it, it just a
normal situation because you both live far from each other where the time zone
is totally different and it’s even hard to say hi through phone. So you think
that maybe you are over reacting on this matter because sometimes you think it
is so darn stupid to call her telling you missed her because it will be just a
waste on her money.
LOL Sorry if this post is too long or it takes your precious time to read it. I even doubt that anyone would read it. But still.. Whatever I guess.
left just like that but she never been gone from your sight. How can you not
think about her every time she appears on your sight?
The thing is, stupid brain of yours just don’t get it why. Why did she
decide to let you go in the first place, that is. But it is her decision, and
you decided to respect that, since she said she needs time.
You in fact know, both of you are pretending to be alright with the
matter but both of you are trying hard not to think much about it and just look
okay on the outside.
The truth is you are suffering so much on the inside. It feels like hell
each time you see her, doesn’t matter if it’s her smiling face or otherwise. It’s
awful to think you can’t be with her in times of her delight or her gloomy days
anymore.
The thing is, it’s been a while. It has been a while since she stated
that last statement of ‘Just stop.’ Around you people had try to cheer you up,
make you laugh, throw your sadness away, and supposed to make you forget about
it. Indeed, you felt a lil bit better. Yes, you laughed. Of course, the sadness
somehow had reduced. But never, never you will forget about it.
You keep your face straight to not worry the people you care. Things
had gone a bit okay after that, you even found someone that makes your heart
blooms. In a friendly way too, that is.
But then, it happened. Something happened; something that you can never
avoid to feel that way. You read something miserable about her life on her
personal blog, which many people follow it (not that it is a bad thing) and
there you go. You can’t stop your tears from flowing.
You wanted to comfort her so much, and tell her that you really love
her whole being, that you really appreciate every single thing she is, and
never once you thought that she’s an awful person she think she is.
But people around her whom she allows them to talk to her, did that already
for her. You’re glad they did, but somehow you wished you are one of that people.
You wished that she will listen to you, how you really feel, but you doubted
that she will. Because you still think that she despises you.
SITUATION NO 2
There's someone really
lovely, which always makes you smile. That's willing to hear everything from
you, even though it got nothing to do with her… She’s really a very nice
person, which made you really think, ‘Is there any nicer person in this world?
How can she be this thoughtful and caring?’
You thought all of
your problems would solve after meeting her, but then… She has problems in her
life too.
That made you think it
is your time to be the listener now. It is time the role to be reverse. You
wanted to give some deed to her too, since she did so much on you.
However, she prefers
to keep it to herself. In fact, she even pretends to be all okay about it, but
you just know the truth is the total opposite. You don’t want to force her into
telling you, but it is just so disturbing, thinking that she suffers so much
but then she wants to be a mute person when the topic is being brought up.
Of course, you respect
her privacy too, but still.. There’s this naggy feeling inside of you, wanting
to let her feel what have you felt when she helped you before.
And sometimes, you
even thought that maybe she doesn’t trust you, that’s why she’s not telling
anything.
SITUATION NO 3
You got a best friend,
an awesome friend, who is just so great at almost everything. She really is
someone, someone knowable in a certain world, and you are just a regular type
of person, but you never mind about it at all. It’s just that you felt a little
bit proud of having a friend like her.
She is a happy person,
as much as you like it, of course, and oh, how you glad that she is. She got so
many people encouraging her and supporting her in her doings, and it made you
feel blessed.
However you feel like its fading bit by bit.
And both of you don’t even know why. Of course, you still talk, and you still
play around with each other, but it’s kinda… Different now? You have no idea
yourself.
You thought that maybe because you both have
been busier these days so you seemed just can’t catch up with each other that
often. So, you tried to brush the thought off.
But then, when you think about it, it just a
normal situation because you both live far from each other where the time zone
is totally different and it’s even hard to say hi through phone. So you think
that maybe you are over reacting on this matter because sometimes you think it
is so darn stupid to call her telling you missed her because it will be just a
waste on her money.
LOL Sorry if this post is too long or it takes your precious time to read it. I even doubt that anyone would read it. But still.. Whatever I guess.