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So I didn't make call backs.. which means I know that I am not going to have a lead part.. probably not any part. Just chorus blah. I guess I am used to it. I have always been in the chorus. I guess that is my place in plays. My mom said it was because I am too fat. She is probably right. She forgot lousy actress and singer to go along with fat.
I hate being so down all of the time. I want to write entries that are happy or "silly" again. I am sick of all of this depression but I can't just write about things that are good when there hasn't been anything good that I have experienced lately. I guess that's the way it goes.
God, I miss him.
Now you need me, Now you don't