For those who are not afraid....
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I've found out alot concerning me this week and it always amazes me about how much I really do not know about myself. I have been handed the trust of many in this week alone. A scary but humbling thought. People have told me things this week about themselves that I would never have been able to handle by myself without the support of God. I have been asked to pray for more people this week then all the prayer requests I have gotten in my entire life. It's amazing that God would entrust in me such responsibility. I wrote a poem on monday. I was led to do so. A very random leading indeed. When i was done, i reread it and cried. I barely made it through. It was not me writing... My biggest inadequacy was poured onto completion on that piece of Mead college ruled paper in black ink. But I did not write it. God wrote it through me as if he was telling me something. And He did. He told me of the biggest flaw in my life. My laziness. He told me how i was being so selfish and how i was only caring for myself when i procrastinated and put myself down. He told me that the reason I go home with a sense of unaccomplishment was because I always put myself first by thinking "what can i do without doing alot of work." He told me that when I wake up I think this and when I go to sleep I think this. GOD TOLD ME that I was the wall the kept my future, my purpose, my calling away for me.
The rest of the week I tried not be lazy and think of other's instead of just myself. Im thinking about what i have been given... I have a runny nose and a headache and I havent taken a shower in two days but I feel so much JOY right now that I feel pain because i cannot let you know how awesome it feels.
I've been inspired to write a book of poetry and teenage insight and I have been praying on whether or not I should invest my time into writing it. I feel so led to do so. I feel led to go to the next length and get it published.
I will be joining the Amnesty International club next friday. To further display compassion. The compassion Jesus has shown on the weak and lazy, like me.
I need to also express something else. If I have hurt anyone of you with the words i have spoken to you in the past, i ask and plead for your forgiveness and if you feel obligated to let me know what ive done, feel free to do so. I need to remember that I am a servant and that I am messenger.
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Pray for me as I pray for those God has sent me.
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P.S. i am so tired of fickle people and I wont be one of them. If entries like this are those you do not want to read on your friends page, then delete me.
I've found out alot concerning me this week and it always amazes me about how much I really do not know about myself. I have been handed the trust of many in this week alone. A scary but humbling thought. People have told me things this week about themselves that I would never have been able to handle by myself without the support of God. I have been asked to pray for more people this week then all the prayer requests I have gotten in my entire life. It's amazing that God would entrust in me such responsibility. I wrote a poem on monday. I was led to do so. A very random leading indeed. When i was done, i reread it and cried. I barely made it through. It was not me writing... My biggest inadequacy was poured onto completion on that piece of Mead college ruled paper in black ink. But I did not write it. God wrote it through me as if he was telling me something. And He did. He told me of the biggest flaw in my life. My laziness. He told me how i was being so selfish and how i was only caring for myself when i procrastinated and put myself down. He told me that the reason I go home with a sense of unaccomplishment was because I always put myself first by thinking "what can i do without doing alot of work." He told me that when I wake up I think this and when I go to sleep I think this. GOD TOLD ME that I was the wall the kept my future, my purpose, my calling away for me.
The rest of the week I tried not be lazy and think of other's instead of just myself. Im thinking about what i have been given... I have a runny nose and a headache and I havent taken a shower in two days but I feel so much JOY right now that I feel pain because i cannot let you know how awesome it feels.
I've been inspired to write a book of poetry and teenage insight and I have been praying on whether or not I should invest my time into writing it. I feel so led to do so. I feel led to go to the next length and get it published.
I will be joining the Amnesty International club next friday. To further display compassion. The compassion Jesus has shown on the weak and lazy, like me.
I need to also express something else. If I have hurt anyone of you with the words i have spoken to you in the past, i ask and plead for your forgiveness and if you feel obligated to let me know what ive done, feel free to do so. I need to remember that I am a servant and that I am messenger.
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Pray for me as I pray for those God has sent me.
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P.S. i am so tired of fickle people and I wont be one of them. If entries like this are those you do not want to read on your friends page, then delete me.