H o n e s t y . . . No one reads this anyway... haha*
I have lived in the woods, in the mountains, in a Pagan Sanctuary (originally a Native American hot spot once upon a time), in Eastern Tennessee for almost 5 years,(that's a Pentagram), in August. Let me dissect this.
POSITIVES:
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* Made it through to my First College Degree ever ~ Associates in Psychology.
* Wicked Geisha has Evolved: Ever~Exquisitely, Divine Sisters, Philosophy in Place.
* Made real, my Life Long Aspirations to finally begin the "Great Work", (which will never end).
* Increased my Skills, Confidence, and Understanding of Magick~ (Energy Work).
* Blossomed into a High Priestess with Ever~Expanding Knowledge of Magick & Healing Arts.
* Made it to being an Adept in an Order of Light ~ Please Don't Ask, I am Under Oath.
* Am more Clear now than I have Ever been, about what I wish to do in my Existence.
* Have an Actual General Plan for the Future, that is: Realistic, Worldly Beneficial, & Mutable.
* Have made some truly amazing Friends.
* I have my Priest, Partner, & Friend ~ (we barely "broke on through to the other side").
NEGATIVES:
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* Relationships Torture which I allowed by my own Ignorance & Generosity of Heart repeatedly.
* Living in the middle of f*cking nowhere for almost 5 years.
* Broke almost the whole time.
* Fishbowl Freak-out.
* Only one time over those 5 years did I get to visit those Beings whom I sorely missed on the West Coast, (not to mention getting the hell out of "dodge").
* Selfish - Mean - Huge Egos - Alcoholic - Slack Ass - Tiny Minded - Boring as F*ck - Take Advantage - Hypocrites who don't even use Biodegradable/Recycled Products for the Mother - Whining & Moaning About What? - Pointing the Fingers - Endless Spite - Backstabbing - Etc.
*WHEW* I Finally got to Vent!!! Okay, so if you are reading this, I am obviously not referring to you, and hopefully if you are reading this, you aren't going to try and figure out who the hell I am venting about BECAUSE, IT DOESN'T MATTER... (Don't be like them) *Gossipmongering*
There are certainly people whom I will stay in contact with and those who I've already severed ties with. I will most likely loose my "popularity status" among several - (who cares - they should have thought about that before repeatedly acting like selfish dumb-asses & complete jerks); but what is important to me, is to Share & Exchange Existence with those who Desire & Do, Continue to Evolve, as well as Show Genuine: Kindness, Love, Respect, & Interest in Contributing to making the Future a Better Place.
I do not pretend to be perfect, & pay attention to my Weaknesses & Work on those things for Real... In Fact, I can Honestly Say~ I have had my Ass Served to me on a Silver Platter by Alchemy, repeatedly... & the Cycles Continue On... I am willing to Listen as well as Openly Communicate to Any Who are not causing me Allergies: "Sorry, but I'm Allergic to Bullsh*t".
I CANNOT WAIT to move out of the VALLEY; the Goal is November but we may have to wait until Spring 2011 ~ I will do Everything in my Power not to be here another Winter... The Positives outweigh the Negatives Thankfully, (so long as I find out I have a Good Bill of Health after all the Seemingly Never-Ending Stress). It's not like any destination in America is my ideal homestead, but Asheville will have to do for now. Anything is better than being stuck in the middle of nowhere. My Duties and Commitments to this Beautiful Place have been Fulfilled & there is nothing more for me to Offer. I am Very Grateful for the Solace this LAND has given me, & I LOVED my GAEA HOUSE & GARDEN & Land of Cerren Ered, Land of Dragonshire, Land of Nippur, & Land of Theoria... but I will not miss the Valley.
Cerren Ered the Land is Sacred to my Heart.
Cerren Ered "Extended" Community has great Significance to me.
The Valley has nothing special to me.
I have No Love for TN (except for all of the Natural Beauty of the Lands, Mountains, & Rivers)
I really have No Love for the South ~ so far.
I have realized that I am Not Sentimental about where I Live on this Planet. The Most Important thing is to being able to interact with: Evolved, Kind, Creative, Beautiful Beings.
I wish to Decorate MY FUTURE PALACE with: Art, Passion, Whimsy, Frolic, Intelligence, Magick, Health, Progressive Thinking, Positive Technology & Alternative Energy, Theatrics, Wisdom, Balance, Healing Energy of All Facets of Being... A Sanctuary of Mysteries & Alchemy.
Let's make this clear... I am Entirely Grateful to Sior, No Question.
Good Night~x0x
Love, Spittle*