And then maybe..
"Apart from the yadda yadda, I'm still stuck. So many things going through my head, night and day and every waking second. It's not like I've even got a logical reasoning behind this. I just don't. But what's bothering me the most is that deep down, I already know the answer. It's that softest voice in me that speaks that loudest, and it's whispering to me what I know but don't want to hear. And it's just so like me to put everything on hold, to disregard the inevitable and pretend, if only for a moment, that the world has stopped revolving. Frozen time allows for frozen moments. And maybe then, my heart will freeze."