To: You. - Love: Me.
I guess you can say that I cant give up my LiveJournal only because this is the place where I need to get all my frustrations and feelings out of. Its like someone draining all this extra water right out of me. I wish I could tell you that I'm slowly becoming better and that I feel prefectly peachy, but if I did I wouldn't be telling you the truth.
The truth is, I feel aweful, for things I've said and for coming to conclusions. You know who you are and who this is addressed to. I guess there is nothing I can say to make everything better, and for the first time I feel as if I have absolutly no control over the situation. Many others would probably go on not caring and most likely just move on, but I cant and maybe its because I care for this person so deeply that it hurts me that we went from being great friends to what might be the end of our friendship. If you dont know me, I tend to make a big thing out of nothing and maybe thats what this situation is. Maybe its about getting the last laugh, or seeing you prevails over who. To me, I dont know what I would call it, or for that fact title it anything what so ever. What I do know, is that sometimes, time can be the only thing to make this completely clear - to make it go from the colors of the rainbow, to complete blackness, to what seems to be clear. No colors, just clear. If you think about it, its somewhat like a friendship - Think real hard, I'm sure you'll get it. I just only hope we are all given second chances for those times you mess up, the times you make a mistake. All of us couldn't go on living knowing that once you mess up, you cant fix it or at least attempt making an effort to change the things you should have done differently. I guess you can say I learned something from this entire situation. I need to forgive and forget. And for the first time in my life, I completely and truly understand what that famous phrase means. I only wish others can see that too.
Thats all.
The truth is, I feel aweful, for things I've said and for coming to conclusions. You know who you are and who this is addressed to. I guess there is nothing I can say to make everything better, and for the first time I feel as if I have absolutly no control over the situation. Many others would probably go on not caring and most likely just move on, but I cant and maybe its because I care for this person so deeply that it hurts me that we went from being great friends to what might be the end of our friendship. If you dont know me, I tend to make a big thing out of nothing and maybe thats what this situation is. Maybe its about getting the last laugh, or seeing you prevails over who. To me, I dont know what I would call it, or for that fact title it anything what so ever. What I do know, is that sometimes, time can be the only thing to make this completely clear - to make it go from the colors of the rainbow, to complete blackness, to what seems to be clear. No colors, just clear. If you think about it, its somewhat like a friendship - Think real hard, I'm sure you'll get it. I just only hope we are all given second chances for those times you mess up, the times you make a mistake. All of us couldn't go on living knowing that once you mess up, you cant fix it or at least attempt making an effort to change the things you should have done differently. I guess you can say I learned something from this entire situation. I need to forgive and forget. And for the first time in my life, I completely and truly understand what that famous phrase means. I only wish others can see that too.
Thats all.