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Have you ever just felt like your whole world is being changed and how you try your best but you just cant do anything about it and every word you say or thing you try to do is misinturperted and your mood changes from wanting to scream at people from fealing like you are gona cry.
And on a seperate note/ i dont know what i want to do with my life i have wanted to be in NASA for so long but now it seems like that was not what i was ment to do and that its not what i want anymore, and it seems like what i really want to do is theater, i listen to musicals and think about being a part of them on broadway. And i can see light cues in my head when i am listening to music, when ever i am in any theatre I feal so happy and comfertable. And when i frequently just wish i was in a theatre. When i spend endless amounts of my time watching movies and tv and on IMDB , and reading the box office reports on moviephone.com finding out everthing I can about the entertainment industry. Then again there is the worry about not being able to make money and ending up working at a boring desk job for the rest of my life. But maybe i should not worry about it and maybe i should just go for it and do the best i can and never give up. I wish decisions were easy lol.
Im watching Mulan Rouge, its oddly comferting. I wish there were more guys in the world like the ewan mcgregor character lol.
And on a seperate note/ i dont know what i want to do with my life i have wanted to be in NASA for so long but now it seems like that was not what i was ment to do and that its not what i want anymore, and it seems like what i really want to do is theater, i listen to musicals and think about being a part of them on broadway. And i can see light cues in my head when i am listening to music, when ever i am in any theatre I feal so happy and comfertable. And when i frequently just wish i was in a theatre. When i spend endless amounts of my time watching movies and tv and on IMDB , and reading the box office reports on moviephone.com finding out everthing I can about the entertainment industry. Then again there is the worry about not being able to make money and ending up working at a boring desk job for the rest of my life. But maybe i should not worry about it and maybe i should just go for it and do the best i can and never give up. I wish decisions were easy lol.
Im watching Mulan Rouge, its oddly comferting. I wish there were more guys in the world like the ewan mcgregor character lol.