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[my_unbirthday]

ok,
just when i thought everything was cleared up and good
it turned into somehting more complicated than i ever imagined
i think i fixed it though
but i still feel bad
=/

i just need to get something out.

at times...

i always find myself wanting you
or waiting for you
its like I NEED you
to be around

but also

at times...

i say to myself "what are you doing?"
you dont NEED him
what is he going to do?
..cast a magic spell on you to solve all of your problems
....nope, hes not.

but then

at times...

i realize, that you DO help me
you help me with everything that i need help with
whether it be something totally pointless....
you still help me

and also

at times...

i say to myself, " how lucky I am that your in my life"
your perfect.
you have everything, that I desire.

everything.

ah...
im.
just.
so.
confused.

>: ()......=/

BUT ANYWAY....things have been going good besides that...i went to christins today, im glad i got to see her because i missed her sooo much =)

tomorrow im going to briitaannyss house!!!!!!!ahhh im soo excited