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so
what i have been thinking about lately
is
what does that mean?...to have a boyfriend/girlfriend...or shoudl i say, to “go out with someone”
what, that its just someone to kiss and give a hug at the end of the school day?
or someone to go to events with?
i guess it can mean that.
but it can also mean,
the main person that you feel comfortable with, to just randomly talk about absolutely anything thats on your mind, without hesitating
and
the person that you look forward to seeing every day, because they make you have the best feeling in the world when you lay eyes on them
and
the person that you can be YOU around, and not someone that you think they will like. after all, if they are the ones that asked you out, they must have liked SOMETHING about you before hand
and
the person that you want to be with all the time, because you love the way you feel when you are around them, it is almost like a feeling of sudden relief, because after you are around them for what? like 5 or 10 minutes i would say?, you just, feel, so comfortable.
maybe some people want to have a boyfriend/girlfriend, because they think that it will effect there social life, for instance, if the person that you have feelings for happens to be more “popular” than you, you would obviosly want to be with them right?...well i dont agree with that at all.
that person, can turn out to be the most horrible person you have ever met.
i think, that a real relationship should not just happen like that, but GROW.
what i mean by grow, is grow closer and closer and closer, and just never stop, even if you do have the label of “going out”
you meet the person, you find out that you have some things in common, which gives you things to talk about, before you know it, you talk quite often, about your things in common, you could even say that you are now “friends”, so you continue to talk, about the things that you have in common, and you start to notice, that you talk so much, that you are together almost all the time,
and then, it starts.
you start to not only talk to gether all the time, but you start to get the feeling that you look forward to being with the person, so you can talk, its like a feeling of excitement, to see the person the next day, and it grows to be the excitement of not wanting to talk to them, but just wanting to be around them, have you be the center of their attention.
and
you start to notice, that they seem to have the same feelings as you do, by little signs that happen, for instance, there is a school assembly, they purposly jump to the front of the line, where you are, just so they can get the seat next to you,
or
if your class is split up into groups, they try to sit wherever they would have the most luck of being in your group.
things like that, start to give you the feeling that, maybe, just, maybe, they have the same feelings for you as you seem to have for them.
you might even start to tell your friends that you “like” them,
and they just to happen to tell there friends that they “like” you
so
you find out that they like you
and you get this feeling of joy and excitement, to know, that someone actually likes” you, its all like “wow, this is so great, someone must like either how i look, or how i dress, or how i act, they must like SOMETHING about me,,and that it so awesome” and you just cant stop smiling for the rest of the day.
but, problems start to arise
you start to get a little weird around them
because the whole time your thinking “hmmm i wonder if he knows i like him, or if he knows that i know that he likes me?” and all these little thoughts are running through your head, and before you know it, theres nothing to talk about.
its like you just freeze.
and then
you start to get the oh so deadly feeling of “n e r v o u s n e s s “
THAT IS THE WORST FEELING EVER.....EVER.....ever.
because it leads to negitivity
negitivity meaning...oh my god, does he still like me?, naah, he probably likes that girl hes taling to over there...
its like, if your not the center of attention, you get the feeling of jealosy, which is also a terrible feeling, like, you dont mean to get it, it just comes naturally.
so now
you dont know how to act around them
and you continue to freeze up, therefore causing yourself to think bad thoughts.
and then
before you know it
theyre asking you out.
and all the negativity goes away
but not the nervousness, and sadly, but honestly, not the jealosness
they stay, and to make it even worse
they start to grow
you start to think, oh god, am i going to do this right? so now that we are going out, how am i supposed to act around them? because now, we do more than talk about the things we have in common, now, we h u g, and we k i s s , and we even, m a k e , o u t, and thats just the beginning of it.........and its just like.....!!!!!!!!!!!
and the worst part is,
that while you are going through this huge pile of emotions and feelings and thoughts, that are all in your head,
you have
no.
idea.
what is going on in there head.
and that, is what kills you.
(and yes, these are the things i seem to think about when i am bored)
haha
=)
what i have been thinking about lately
is
what does that mean?...to have a boyfriend/girlfriend...or shoudl i say, to “go out with someone”
what, that its just someone to kiss and give a hug at the end of the school day?
or someone to go to events with?
i guess it can mean that.
but it can also mean,
the main person that you feel comfortable with, to just randomly talk about absolutely anything thats on your mind, without hesitating
and
the person that you look forward to seeing every day, because they make you have the best feeling in the world when you lay eyes on them
and
the person that you can be YOU around, and not someone that you think they will like. after all, if they are the ones that asked you out, they must have liked SOMETHING about you before hand
and
the person that you want to be with all the time, because you love the way you feel when you are around them, it is almost like a feeling of sudden relief, because after you are around them for what? like 5 or 10 minutes i would say?, you just, feel, so comfortable.
maybe some people want to have a boyfriend/girlfriend, because they think that it will effect there social life, for instance, if the person that you have feelings for happens to be more “popular” than you, you would obviosly want to be with them right?...well i dont agree with that at all.
that person, can turn out to be the most horrible person you have ever met.
i think, that a real relationship should not just happen like that, but GROW.
what i mean by grow, is grow closer and closer and closer, and just never stop, even if you do have the label of “going out”
you meet the person, you find out that you have some things in common, which gives you things to talk about, before you know it, you talk quite often, about your things in common, you could even say that you are now “friends”, so you continue to talk, about the things that you have in common, and you start to notice, that you talk so much, that you are together almost all the time,
and then, it starts.
you start to not only talk to gether all the time, but you start to get the feeling that you look forward to being with the person, so you can talk, its like a feeling of excitement, to see the person the next day, and it grows to be the excitement of not wanting to talk to them, but just wanting to be around them, have you be the center of their attention.
and
you start to notice, that they seem to have the same feelings as you do, by little signs that happen, for instance, there is a school assembly, they purposly jump to the front of the line, where you are, just so they can get the seat next to you,
or
if your class is split up into groups, they try to sit wherever they would have the most luck of being in your group.
things like that, start to give you the feeling that, maybe, just, maybe, they have the same feelings for you as you seem to have for them.
you might even start to tell your friends that you “like” them,
and they just to happen to tell there friends that they “like” you
so
you find out that they like you
and you get this feeling of joy and excitement, to know, that someone actually likes” you, its all like “wow, this is so great, someone must like either how i look, or how i dress, or how i act, they must like SOMETHING about me,,and that it so awesome” and you just cant stop smiling for the rest of the day.
but, problems start to arise
you start to get a little weird around them
because the whole time your thinking “hmmm i wonder if he knows i like him, or if he knows that i know that he likes me?” and all these little thoughts are running through your head, and before you know it, theres nothing to talk about.
its like you just freeze.
and then
you start to get the oh so deadly feeling of “n e r v o u s n e s s “
THAT IS THE WORST FEELING EVER.....EVER.....ever.
because it leads to negitivity
negitivity meaning...oh my god, does he still like me?, naah, he probably likes that girl hes taling to over there...
its like, if your not the center of attention, you get the feeling of jealosy, which is also a terrible feeling, like, you dont mean to get it, it just comes naturally.
so now
you dont know how to act around them
and you continue to freeze up, therefore causing yourself to think bad thoughts.
and then
before you know it
theyre asking you out.
and all the negativity goes away
but not the nervousness, and sadly, but honestly, not the jealosness
they stay, and to make it even worse
they start to grow
you start to think, oh god, am i going to do this right? so now that we are going out, how am i supposed to act around them? because now, we do more than talk about the things we have in common, now, we h u g, and we k i s s , and we even, m a k e , o u t, and thats just the beginning of it.........and its just like.....!!!!!!!!!!!
and the worst part is,
that while you are going through this huge pile of emotions and feelings and thoughts, that are all in your head,
you have
no.
idea.
what is going on in there head.
and that, is what kills you.
(and yes, these are the things i seem to think about when i am bored)
haha
=)