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[my_tractor_sexy]

So, I'm at the point where I want to cry.
I have 4 D's on my report card.
Thank god I have very understanding parents.
But I still feel like I've failed myself.
I thought by taking classes a little more challeging would be better
and all, but maybe I did get in over my head.
I'm really at the point where I just want to get my diploma
and go off to college.
I really have grown to hate high school.
I've never been like this before.
And it bothers me that I'm like this.
I hate feeling the way I am right now.
I've actually gotten to the point of where I was back in freshman year.
I don't want to be like that again.
I dunno.
I'm joining the gym this week, once I get my paycheck.
Maybe things will get better after that.
I know I feel better working out.

Also, sometimes I think about who my true friends are.
I miss some of my really old friends.
I started crying yesterday going through my middle school yearbooks.
Sometimes I wish I could just live in this one part of time where everything is fantastic and nothing really matters.
I wish I was 4 again....because all I had to worry about was what was for snack.
Gosh...I just want someone to spill my guts to.
That's all I want.
But for me to be able to do that, I need to get over the fact to let people help me.

ok.
im done being emo.