Last letter to mom...
Ok I had a few things on my mind lately and thought about sending my mom one last letter. It started out as just a 2 page letter but went to 3 pages front & back. Here's what it says:
Sometimes I just can't figure you out.First you send me a cryptic postcard making it sound like your dying & direly need to talk to me.
I was told by numberous people to have Chris or Paul call to find out whats going on. That way it wont stress me out & I wont risk losing my precious baby, that I've grown SO attached to & I'm only 8 weeks along at most.
So, Yeah... I had Chris call you, because there's no need to drag Paul into our problems. Chris told me what was all said, even played the message you left on his voicemail.
I don't know why you seem to view me as a threat. I say that cause of a number of reasons. 1)The times I'd spend with dad alone, my 16th birthday, all I wanted was to spend it with dad. He was always but working & I never got to see hin much. 2)When we were both planning our weddings... you stole all my ideas for my wedding to use as your own. 3)You fight with me as though you are a jealous sibling.
Why do you feel that way towards me?
I wont jump to yout level & say "I'll NEVER forgive you for not showing up at my wedding", But I will say a big part of me wished you would of showed, you did miss one hell of a party !
I will also say, a part of me wants to be the bigger "man" & send you a pic of us, but I'm not sure you...
Why is it hard for you to accept Chris into my life? He has done nothing but good things for me, dad & Paul.
When I was truly alone, I realized how much I loved chris, & really missed him. Thats why we got back together.
We got married May 9th, and said, if it happens it happens when it came to me getting pregnant. Wel Big suprise to us, it didn't take long at all. So you can saythats why we got married all you want, but its a honeymoon baby.
Thats another thing, just cause you and Shannon don't get along, you dont have to sabatoge our friendship by telling her a bunch of crap. Yes, I don't keep secrets from my husband, I tell him who I talk to & most of what was said, especially if he needs to know.
Neither one of us twists peoples words around, only YOUR family does that, remember? "Robyn's sleeping with her dad", "I'm pregnant & doing drugs & my b/f supplies me & dad with the drugs" Remember those LIES your family spread around?!?
With this whole pregnancy thing, I've mentioned to Paul that if one day it slipped out in conversation w/ you, I didn't care. I just wasn't going to go out of my way to call you and tell you. I posted that on my page online, on facebook. Shannon sent me a message saying she wanted to tell you.
I don't need any added stress in my life right now. I'm glad I have a sympathetic husband & boss (at Sears) that know I'll have my good & bad days w/ this pregnancy.
I just want you to know, I am happy with where I am in life right now. I'm not sure why, like everyone else, you just can't bring yourself to be happy for me.
His mom is SO happy for us, she cried when we told her I was pregnant. We have the most wonderful relationship, we share recipes, this year we're getting together to bake christmas cookies. We got together twice now to just hang out & go shopping. It was her idea to take me shopping to help her pick out a dress for my wedding. (Which IF I was pregnant at that time, there's no way grandma would of needed to take in my dress. My dress was a size 4 for the wedding)
Oh and you didn't sabatoge my wedding as you had hoped by telling everyone not to show, I had everyone, even my aunt karen, from my dad's side show up.
After you send that cryptic letter, scream at my husband, hang up on him when the truth starts to hurt just a little too much. Telling him, "I want to have a 'Bitch fight' with my daughter". Lying that SHannon told you about the my pregnancy, saying crap like, "Oh, so thats why they got married." After all that...
You have the nerve to send another postcard saying, "Happy 25th, we miss & love you"?
Am I to assume thats your way of appologizing ot just another ploy, in hopes I'll call you?
I am to the point where, you have to accept chris as my husband, and only after he approves of your new attitude, can you & I have a relationship.
I tell you what, right now as we stand, Lynette, Chris's mom, & dad all have read the letters you sent. All three say, "Chris, you need to protect her from her mom."
I also want to mention that by sept. 1st we are moving, you have until then or your waiting a year to change your ways.
Thats about all I have to say really besides stressing the point that Chris doesn't control me. I gave him the specific instructions on how I want matters between you & me are to be adressed.
For example: I only want to hear positive things, if I don't see that I got a letter, I wont stress on what bullshits said inside it.
So therefore, I have him check the mail & he has the only key.
I know my stressing the Chris controling me thing is pointless, cause like usual, you jump to your own conclusions. But maybe, I guess, deep down, I hoped one of these times you'd actually understand & listen to me.
Sometimes I just can't figure you out.First you send me a cryptic postcard making it sound like your dying & direly need to talk to me.
I was told by numberous people to have Chris or Paul call to find out whats going on. That way it wont stress me out & I wont risk losing my precious baby, that I've grown SO attached to & I'm only 8 weeks along at most.
So, Yeah... I had Chris call you, because there's no need to drag Paul into our problems. Chris told me what was all said, even played the message you left on his voicemail.
I don't know why you seem to view me as a threat. I say that cause of a number of reasons. 1)The times I'd spend with dad alone, my 16th birthday, all I wanted was to spend it with dad. He was always but working & I never got to see hin much. 2)When we were both planning our weddings... you stole all my ideas for my wedding to use as your own. 3)You fight with me as though you are a jealous sibling.
Why do you feel that way towards me?
I wont jump to yout level & say "I'll NEVER forgive you for not showing up at my wedding", But I will say a big part of me wished you would of showed, you did miss one hell of a party !
I will also say, a part of me wants to be the bigger "man" & send you a pic of us, but I'm not sure you...
Why is it hard for you to accept Chris into my life? He has done nothing but good things for me, dad & Paul.
When I was truly alone, I realized how much I loved chris, & really missed him. Thats why we got back together.
We got married May 9th, and said, if it happens it happens when it came to me getting pregnant. Wel Big suprise to us, it didn't take long at all. So you can saythats why we got married all you want, but its a honeymoon baby.
Thats another thing, just cause you and Shannon don't get along, you dont have to sabatoge our friendship by telling her a bunch of crap. Yes, I don't keep secrets from my husband, I tell him who I talk to & most of what was said, especially if he needs to know.
Neither one of us twists peoples words around, only YOUR family does that, remember? "Robyn's sleeping with her dad", "I'm pregnant & doing drugs & my b/f supplies me & dad with the drugs" Remember those LIES your family spread around?!?
With this whole pregnancy thing, I've mentioned to Paul that if one day it slipped out in conversation w/ you, I didn't care. I just wasn't going to go out of my way to call you and tell you. I posted that on my page online, on facebook. Shannon sent me a message saying she wanted to tell you.
I don't need any added stress in my life right now. I'm glad I have a sympathetic husband & boss (at Sears) that know I'll have my good & bad days w/ this pregnancy.
I just want you to know, I am happy with where I am in life right now. I'm not sure why, like everyone else, you just can't bring yourself to be happy for me.
His mom is SO happy for us, she cried when we told her I was pregnant. We have the most wonderful relationship, we share recipes, this year we're getting together to bake christmas cookies. We got together twice now to just hang out & go shopping. It was her idea to take me shopping to help her pick out a dress for my wedding. (Which IF I was pregnant at that time, there's no way grandma would of needed to take in my dress. My dress was a size 4 for the wedding)
Oh and you didn't sabatoge my wedding as you had hoped by telling everyone not to show, I had everyone, even my aunt karen, from my dad's side show up.
After you send that cryptic letter, scream at my husband, hang up on him when the truth starts to hurt just a little too much. Telling him, "I want to have a 'Bitch fight' with my daughter". Lying that SHannon told you about the my pregnancy, saying crap like, "Oh, so thats why they got married." After all that...
You have the nerve to send another postcard saying, "Happy 25th, we miss & love you"?
Am I to assume thats your way of appologizing ot just another ploy, in hopes I'll call you?
I am to the point where, you have to accept chris as my husband, and only after he approves of your new attitude, can you & I have a relationship.
I tell you what, right now as we stand, Lynette, Chris's mom, & dad all have read the letters you sent. All three say, "Chris, you need to protect her from her mom."
I also want to mention that by sept. 1st we are moving, you have until then or your waiting a year to change your ways.
Thats about all I have to say really besides stressing the point that Chris doesn't control me. I gave him the specific instructions on how I want matters between you & me are to be adressed.
For example: I only want to hear positive things, if I don't see that I got a letter, I wont stress on what bullshits said inside it.
So therefore, I have him check the mail & he has the only key.
I know my stressing the Chris controling me thing is pointless, cause like usual, you jump to your own conclusions. But maybe, I guess, deep down, I hoped one of these times you'd actually understand & listen to me.