what is this subject you speak of ?

[my_suicide_memo]

okay..ive been..up to shit..i went to apply at applebees..and tomorrow im off to apply at a few other places. to NO ones surprise i am still jobless. i am a bum. and i am good for nothing. besides smoking YOUR' weed. cuz i never have any money. and if i do happen to get five bucks..ill buy a nickel and thats mine...soo everyones pretty much shit out of luck. but..if i do happen to get this job im going to save me up some money for sure for sure..i needa get a ride..i dont care what kinda car it is, it can be a piece of shit that they wont even take on "Pimp My Ride" I ..DONT..CARE...! i shall love it. and kiss it. and clean it. and pretty it up and yada yada yada. etc etc etc . . . whatever. sooo im sorta now..officially..like single...yea...me and that special someone.(which may i add is STILL very special) have decided to take a little break. i dont know where this road that im choosing to wander off on will take me. but...thats always been me..not knowing what im going to do next or when im going to do something. cuz...im not really one to plan shit out. and i dont really want to plan anything out. but like..its been getting bad like..i mean i should at least have some idea of what im going to do. but i dont. im like..blank TOTALLY blank. sooooooooooooooooooo i hope i get a job really soon. can you guys tell i have A.D.D. i feel like ive been jumping to subject to subject and shit. i feel weird not having a gf...ive had a gf on and off for like two and a half years. and now being single is like...well its overrated i can tell you that much.

okay fuck this i dont feel like typing anymore and if i dont update this then more than likely just going to sign off and its not going to save and im going to get pissed and then im not going to post on lj for another....two months or so...sooo until two months from now. cya