how is it.. now?
is it over or...yeah, feel easier and free..
but NO
it is still in me, lives and flourishes, comes through my veins, destroys me..
i am collapsed, ain't I?!
didn't i choose it by myself? - yeas, i DID
so no complains.
happiness and euphoria for one second, for one moment?....
- no. i choose rationality and conscience but for a life-long time.
and one little promise is still IN there, in my head.
my only task is not to break it next time if there is any temptation !