a good day can never last, can it?

[my_soul_onpaper]

After school today I ran my errands and then went with Presley to the mall for awhile hen back to his house to watch the begining of the West Virginia game. That was all good. It was a good day, I drew all over my arm because there was alot of creative juices and no sketch book and I was drinking Jones Soda all day. It was awesome. I got home

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EVERY DAY IS ALWAYS DIFFERENT

[anonymous]

EVERY DAY WHEN I WAS UP NORTH, I WOULD WAKE UP AND THINK---WELL, WHAT WILL TRACY DO TO ME TODAY? THERE WAS ALWAYS SOMTHING. MONEY, PRESCRIPTIONS, TAKE ME TO DOCTOR'S, WHATEVER. THE FIGHTING WAS UNBELIVEABLE---I HAD TO REMOVE MYSELF FROM EVERYONE, OR I WOULD BE DEAD FROM THE STRESS. I WAS A PRISIONER IN MY OWN HOME. AFRAID TO LEAVE, AND AFRAID TO STAY. I AM SO SORRY THAT I HAD TO SELL THE HOUSE---DIDN'T REALLT WANT TO---HAD TO, TO GET AWAY FROM ALL THE AGGRAVATION, DOING ON MY OWN,. AND GOING BROKE AT THE SAME TIME.
I ALWAYS WISHED FOR THE THE VERY BEST IN LIFE, AND IF THAT WAS A PICTURE OF PRESLEY, HE IS REALLY HANDSOME.
I WISH YOU BUTTERFLIES, AND RAINBOWS, AND ROSES TO SMELL. I WISH YOU PEACE, AND HAPPINESS, AND I HOPE THERE COMES A TIME WHEN YOU CAN FINALLY GET IT. LIKE WITH ME, IT TAKES A WHILE, BUT YOU CAN LEAVE WHEN YOU GET OLDER, AND TRY NOT TO HOLD GRUDGES. SOMETIMES PEOPLE JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. SOMETIMES THEY HAVE TO LEARN THE HARD WAY. I DID. NOW I AM DOWN THE SHORE, SCARED TO DEATH IF I MADE A GOOD DECISION, WONDERING WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO MY FAMILY. I CANNOT LEAD THEIR LIVES FOR THEM, SO I MUST LET THEM ALL MAKE THEIR OWN DECISIONS.
DID YOU EVER JUST WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND WANT TO SCREAM SO THE WHOLE TOWN CAN HEAR YOU? THAT IS WHAT I FELT.
I WANTED SOMEONE TO NOTICE ME AND ALL I WAS GOING THROUGH, BUT I REALIZED THAT EVERYONE HAS THEIR OWN PROBLEMS, AND REALLY DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOURS, SO I STAY VERY QUIET, AND KEEP IT ALL INSIDE, AND THAT BIG SCREAM NEVER GETS OUT.
I LOVE YOU AND ALEX, AND KAYLA, AND YOUR FATHER, AND EVERYONE SO MUCH I NEVER WANT TO BURDEN ANYONE WITH HOW I AM FEELING. LIKE I ALWAYS USED TO SAY---I AM WOMAN---I CAN DO ANYTHING---I AM SUPER WOMAN, AND THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE. YOUR MOM WILL STOP WHEN SHE WANTS TO, OR IF SHE HAS TO FOR MEDICAL REASONS---NOT BEFORE. SHE REALLY HAS TO WANT TO , AND THERE WILL COME A TIME WHEN SHE REALIZES THAT SHE DOES WANT TO.
I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU,
GRAMZ