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So I just don't have anything to say. Not a whole lot has been goin on. I work a lot. Been hangin out in Richmond a lot. Cause I work there everyday almost. What really sucks is when I come home from Richmond on Sunday so I can wake up Monday and drive right back for work. That's ghey. This thing is almost depressing. Cause in order for me to update, I've got to reflect on what I've been up to. And it makes me think of shit that I'd rather not think of. I'm bored. I don't wanna be here. I wish I was out somewhere, doin stuff, hangin out. Fuck, this gets boring. Everyone lives far away though. There's nothin to do here anyway. So it's not like there's anywhere to freakin go. It seems I learn more and more everyday, that women are just out to fuck you over. Even when you think things are goin pretty cool and whatnot. You're probably wrong. At least I am. I mean, there's gotta be somethin about me that says, Fuck me over. That's all that happens. I needa stop gettin so caught up in all the bullshit. Girls = Games. Plain and simple.
Damn, Dime bein gone still kinda bothers me. Everytime I listen to Floods, I tear up. I don't think it's ever gonna not bother me though. Stings.
Everyone says I'm an asshole, but I don't really think so. Maybe I should try to actually BE an asshole. Everyone would hate me then. lol That's probably not a good idea. Sometimes though, I just wanna be mean. Really mean. Make you cry mean. I try to be a good person. I try to get along. I try to be nice. I try to give everyone a chance. Some people take advantage of that. I think I'm pretty fuckin nice. Especially when I first meet you. So it's like, when I extend my hand and welcome you as my friend, that takes a lot on my part. Because I'm not one to just be like, ok yeah, lets be friends. It takes a lot for me to trust someone. A WHOLE lot. Shit, most people don't even know what respect and trust is anymore. Maybe I don't need to have anymore friends. Just keep the ones I got, and say fuck everyone else. But what good would that do? None. I could miss out on meetin some really cool people. And I could keep myself from meetin some really shitty people. Which seems to happen more than the other. Can't have the good without the bad right?
I'm guilty of it too, I know...but I just don't understand how some people can be so selfish. I don't use people. Even though I've been acused of that many times. Along with just not caring at all. That sucks.
I feel like no one really knows me.
That's it.
Damn, Dime bein gone still kinda bothers me. Everytime I listen to Floods, I tear up. I don't think it's ever gonna not bother me though. Stings.
Everyone says I'm an asshole, but I don't really think so. Maybe I should try to actually BE an asshole. Everyone would hate me then. lol That's probably not a good idea. Sometimes though, I just wanna be mean. Really mean. Make you cry mean. I try to be a good person. I try to get along. I try to be nice. I try to give everyone a chance. Some people take advantage of that. I think I'm pretty fuckin nice. Especially when I first meet you. So it's like, when I extend my hand and welcome you as my friend, that takes a lot on my part. Because I'm not one to just be like, ok yeah, lets be friends. It takes a lot for me to trust someone. A WHOLE lot. Shit, most people don't even know what respect and trust is anymore. Maybe I don't need to have anymore friends. Just keep the ones I got, and say fuck everyone else. But what good would that do? None. I could miss out on meetin some really cool people. And I could keep myself from meetin some really shitty people. Which seems to happen more than the other. Can't have the good without the bad right?
I'm guilty of it too, I know...but I just don't understand how some people can be so selfish. I don't use people. Even though I've been acused of that many times. Along with just not caring at all. That sucks.
I feel like no one really knows me.
That's it.