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I was forgotten. I'm sad. For some reason, it just hurts. I said I was mad, I said I was pissed off. But I didn't say I was hurt. I don't even know why it matters so much. I think I might still kinda be in shock. I almost died yesterday. I mean fuck. I don't know man. The shit hurt. Maybe I just try to hard. Or maybe I'm just too much of a wishful thinker. I don't know what the fuck is up. I'm tryin to be friends with Erin again. That's somewhat stressfull. But it's for the best. It might be hard for a little bit, but I think things will turn out alright.

I hate having a crush. I just feel powerless. There's nothing I can do at all. I hate having no control at all. (just get over it. it won't work)

I should.

Time for a shower. Hooray for the weekend. Shit, I don't even really wanna go anywhere now. I hate being sad.

That's it.