When you feel all alone...
... chances are that you are, and that God has forsaken you, nobody cares about you enough even to hate you, and you're doomed to a life of eternal depression and nothingness, so get used to it or commit suicide.
I feel bad. Joe's still hardly speaking to me, and when he is he's all apathetic and meh. I know I shouldn't be paranoid - he's been busy and tired because of his art exam, but Jesus. I haven't seen him properly in ages and I'm actually going crazy. I don't know what it is I'm meant to have done - I thought you needed to be able to see someone first before you can piss them off. Damn it. I mean, if he felt worn out because of his exam, fine. I'd let him rest, sleep, relax, whatever. If he was worked up about something, I'd know what to avoid talking about, or I'd know to give him sympathy. Even if he wanted to break up with me I could try to do something about it. But this not knowing is driving me mad. I've just kind of sat here wrapped up in my trenchcoat and ignoring people all day. I went for a walk to see Jess earlier, but she was doing coursework, so I went away again.
Urg.
I can't really say any of this, seeing how bad things are for Grim (who is stranded in America AND kicked in the nuts) at the moment. Selfish little me. On the other hand, I am worried about him. I am considering starting a spam campaign, whereby everyone emails Graham until he gets annoyed and responds out of rage, so at least we know he is alive and angry on the other side of the pond.
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I feel bad. Joe's still hardly speaking to me, and when he is he's all apathetic and meh. I know I shouldn't be paranoid - he's been busy and tired because of his art exam, but Jesus. I haven't seen him properly in ages and I'm actually going crazy. I don't know what it is I'm meant to have done - I thought you needed to be able to see someone first before you can piss them off. Damn it. I mean, if he felt worn out because of his exam, fine. I'd let him rest, sleep, relax, whatever. If he was worked up about something, I'd know what to avoid talking about, or I'd know to give him sympathy. Even if he wanted to break up with me I could try to do something about it. But this not knowing is driving me mad. I've just kind of sat here wrapped up in my trenchcoat and ignoring people all day. I went for a walk to see Jess earlier, but she was doing coursework, so I went away again.
Urg.
I can't really say any of this, seeing how bad things are for Grim (who is stranded in America AND kicked in the nuts) at the moment. Selfish little me. On the other hand, I am worried about him. I am considering starting a spam campaign, whereby everyone emails Graham until he gets annoyed and responds out of rage, so at least we know he is alive and angry on the other side of the pond.
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