Jul 06, 2004 15:52
my parentals are pissing me off to all extremes. apparently they have a problem with me listening to music, but they dont even know i'm alive when i dont. maybe theyd prefer it if i wasnt...? if so the feelings are mutual. soemtimes, its like if i knew my parentals outside of home and just met them on some strange coincidence, i honestly dont think i'd like them. oh well. thats life.
i dont know. i feel really depressed lately and i dont know why.
its begining to bug me. all this depression seriously cuts into my free time. and now i dont even have music to vent. the worlds a bitch and dont i know it.
it's like i feel invisible. you know, like when i hang out with amy sometimes and she meets up with patrick and i sort of feel like "if i wasnt here would anyone seriously miss me?" except my whole life is like that. and it's like none of my friends understand, so i feel just that much more alone.
sorry. i dont really like to do a whole self-pity thing. i'm just really, ya know?