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[my_scared_heart]

This goes out to someone
That was once the most important person in my life
I didn't realize it at the time
I can't forgive myself for the way I treated you
So, I don't really expect you to either
It's just...I don't even know
Just listen

You're the one that I want
The one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you
I knew it was real
I'm sorry about the pain I made you feel
That wasn't me
Let me show you the way
I'd look for the sun but it's raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there
Heaven in the sky

I wore a disguise cuz
I didn't wanna get hurt
But I didn't know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn't care when push came to shove
If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn't have hurt me like I ain't shit
Now you push me away
Like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart
Really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don't know how I could do you so wrong
I really wanna show you
I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you
Like no one else could know you
You're number one
Always in my heart
And now I can't believe that our love's torn apart

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you cuz
I wanna hold you
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything and I really miss you

I know you gonna sit
And play this with your new man
And then sit and laughAs you're holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul when it tears me apart
Our timing it was offI was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you
Until I can't hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain
Damn it I've been saying
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby we can make it work
What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you love me
As you would hug meI guess everything you said was a lie
I think about itIt brings tears to my eyes
Now I'm not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly
My love is not blind

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you cuz
I wanna hold you
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything and I really miss you

I just wish everything could've turned out different
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You'd understand, but
No matter what
You'll always be in my heart
You'll always be my baby

Our first date
It seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse
We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can't take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart
I know I'm still there
I don't wanna hear that you no longer care
Remember the times
Remember when we kissed
I didn't think you would ever do me like this
I didn't think you wanna see me depressed
I thought you'd be there for me
This I confess

You said you were my best friend
Was that a lie?
Now I'm nothing to you
You're with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I'm trying
Now on the inside, it feels like I'm dying

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you cuz
I wanna hold you
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything and I really miss you

And I do miss youI just thought we were meant to be
I guess now we'll never know
The only thing
I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me
Or without me
I just want you to be happy