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It's been quite a while since a real update from my world...a whole lot ahas happened...some which I would like to type, and some which I would prefer to keep between the people that already know about it and maybe people who ask me one on one....
Well, Joe and I are doing alright. We had a little fallout for about a week, but we are gradually getting back to where we were. Hopefully this is not a sign that we are slowly coming to an end. I would truly not know what to do if he wasn't in my life...
So Monday is my birthday- the big 1-8, BABY!!
My mom is taking over my life(more than she has before...argh!!! She is like TRYING to break Joe and I up. She's talking smack about him, telling me how I deserve better and not letting me hang out with him. It absolutely sucks. I mean, we are both getting so frusterated with it, that we almost ended our relationship because she has so much control over me. For example. SHE wants to celebrate my birthday with the family this weekend. I told her I don't want a family get-together. She didn't care. SHE wants a bonfire with the family for my birthday. I don't. Ok, but I will let her have one...So, she asks me if I want it on Friday or Saturday. I tell her Saturday, because Crystal and I are gonna 'hang out' on Friday. SHE says, 'it's going to be weather permitting, so don't put those plans in concrete yet.' SHE freakin asked me what day I wanted it on!!! What the heck!?!?!
She has just taken total control. From dictating when I can and cannot see Joe, what we are going to do(Joe and I), when we will do it, and when I need to be home. Now, I realize that I am still living in her house, and blah blah blah, her rules...but I am almost an adult! I am more adult than most adults already!! And she is telling me when I can and cannot see my boyfriend of a year?!?! This being the realtionship that she pushed in the beginnning!!! ARGH!! It's just so frusterating....
Ok, moving on.....
School started last week. It's...different. I like it a lot, but the caseload of homework is ridiculous. I think I'm going to have to reconsider taking these 18 credits AND work AND deal with my mom(a full-time job in itself). This seems like it's almost going to be too much for me...we will have to see.
I am sitting in the library right now, just waiting for my next class to start. it's 10:55 am, and my next class doesn't start until 12:30...I had 2 and a half hours between my last class and this upcoming one. My Chem lab was cancelled, so I have all this spare time. I could go get lunch, but I don't want to lose my nice parking spot.
Wow, I have a lot on my mind.... maybe I shouldn't share it all here....
But yeah, so life is hectic. Between school(five days a week), work(three days a week), tutoring and mowing lawns, and just keeping up with life at home(my mom and me being the resident shoffeure(sp?), I have no time for a social life. Not that there's much happening around me to HAVE a social life. But I would like to be able to stop in at Joe's house sometime after work and see him, but I can't, because I have to pick someone up or drop someone off or take someone to the store, or make dinner, or actually do homework....There truly isn't enough time in the day to do all the things that I need/have to do....I'm gonna burn out here pretty soon. PLus, I wanted to get involved in some sort of volunteering here on campus, but there is NO WAY I could fit that into my schedule.
Well, I think I may go do some math homework, before the ADD kicks in again...I will probably be back soon.....
If anyone wants to hang out Friday night, around 6ish, gimme a call...for I am free....
~*KT*~
Well, Joe and I are doing alright. We had a little fallout for about a week, but we are gradually getting back to where we were. Hopefully this is not a sign that we are slowly coming to an end. I would truly not know what to do if he wasn't in my life...
So Monday is my birthday- the big 1-8, BABY!!
My mom is taking over my life(more than she has before...argh!!! She is like TRYING to break Joe and I up. She's talking smack about him, telling me how I deserve better and not letting me hang out with him. It absolutely sucks. I mean, we are both getting so frusterated with it, that we almost ended our relationship because she has so much control over me. For example. SHE wants to celebrate my birthday with the family this weekend. I told her I don't want a family get-together. She didn't care. SHE wants a bonfire with the family for my birthday. I don't. Ok, but I will let her have one...So, she asks me if I want it on Friday or Saturday. I tell her Saturday, because Crystal and I are gonna 'hang out' on Friday. SHE says, 'it's going to be weather permitting, so don't put those plans in concrete yet.' SHE freakin asked me what day I wanted it on!!! What the heck!?!?!
She has just taken total control. From dictating when I can and cannot see Joe, what we are going to do(Joe and I), when we will do it, and when I need to be home. Now, I realize that I am still living in her house, and blah blah blah, her rules...but I am almost an adult! I am more adult than most adults already!! And she is telling me when I can and cannot see my boyfriend of a year?!?! This being the realtionship that she pushed in the beginnning!!! ARGH!! It's just so frusterating....
Ok, moving on.....
School started last week. It's...different. I like it a lot, but the caseload of homework is ridiculous. I think I'm going to have to reconsider taking these 18 credits AND work AND deal with my mom(a full-time job in itself). This seems like it's almost going to be too much for me...we will have to see.
I am sitting in the library right now, just waiting for my next class to start. it's 10:55 am, and my next class doesn't start until 12:30...I had 2 and a half hours between my last class and this upcoming one. My Chem lab was cancelled, so I have all this spare time. I could go get lunch, but I don't want to lose my nice parking spot.
Wow, I have a lot on my mind.... maybe I shouldn't share it all here....
But yeah, so life is hectic. Between school(five days a week), work(three days a week), tutoring and mowing lawns, and just keeping up with life at home(my mom and me being the resident shoffeure(sp?), I have no time for a social life. Not that there's much happening around me to HAVE a social life. But I would like to be able to stop in at Joe's house sometime after work and see him, but I can't, because I have to pick someone up or drop someone off or take someone to the store, or make dinner, or actually do homework....There truly isn't enough time in the day to do all the things that I need/have to do....I'm gonna burn out here pretty soon. PLus, I wanted to get involved in some sort of volunteering here on campus, but there is NO WAY I could fit that into my schedule.
Well, I think I may go do some math homework, before the ADD kicks in again...I will probably be back soon.....
If anyone wants to hang out Friday night, around 6ish, gimme a call...for I am free....
~*KT*~