I give up....

[my_sacrifice11]

Life, lately, hasn't been so swell. Which is why, I suppose I haven't updated lately. Life scares me. Soon, one by one, I will be losing my friends to their new lives and I stay here and am stuck in my old one. Up until last night, I wasn't so worried. Because I had Joe. He had become, not only my boyfriend, but my best friend. I had trusted

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[verbalfonders]

and no one does know what's going to happen. such is life. this entry probably doesn't apply to me, but Kt you have no idea how scared I am, too. You're the first one to go out in to the world to make something of yourself just like I'm the only one in my family who is actually going to not screw up my oppurtunity to make something of myself. Both of us have a lot of pressure to either set the example or to change it. KT, you are definitely number one of my top 10 friends. You mean the most to me out of all of my friends. I haven't exactly shown you that myself lately, either. I dunno, I guess you just seem like you always so busy, I don't want to interrupt anything. Frankly, I'm scared of your family. That all I've done to you can still never be forgiven. I'm sorry. When it all come down to it, though, we're all scared of all this change. If someone is really your friend, they'll understand what you're going through. I'd love to call you sometime. I'm pretty booked up for this week, but can you possibly give me a rain check for Saturday the 14th? I'd really like it if we could go see a movie or get a bite to eat. I hope to be having a nice friendly get together friday night as well, so if you could be there, that'd be cool. Well, i hope something I said helped and you should no and exercise the fact i'm always a phone call away. Later...

russell

[my_sacrifice11]

Thanks Russell. I really needed to hear that. You have always been, and will always be, one of my best friends. It just sucks that we haven't had the chance to hang out as much as I would have liked to this summer. I'm just glad that you aren't going away for school. Trust me, there has been so many times when I drove past your house and just wanted to stop in on a whim or just give you a call, but I just thought that it might be weird or maybe you wouldn't WANT me just stopping in or something. Really, you don't need to be scared of my family. I actually talked to my parents about you the other day, oddly enough, and they think you're a really nice guy. My mom thinks that we will end up being forever friends-always there for eachother, no matter where we end up. She thinks that you generally mean well and that we were both still young and immature when we were together. So don't be afraid of them. Quite frankly, right now, I think they like you more than they like Joe, after the other night's fiasco. So yeah, I will leave the 14th open for you, and gimme a call about Friday-I would love to come.....but seriously, don't hesitate to just call me. I have less of a life than you realize. tee hee
~*KT*~